Intro

'Member waking up out my sleep to hear my father been shot
Earlier that week I got the drop on an opp
Now I know they say the sins of fathers make the child life harde
But I can't help but think that mine fell on my pop
At least karma ain't come around because that nigga survived
Thoughts of it haunt my mind you see that shit in my eyes
Forget when I talk to mom but the memories never far behind
I know how it feels to win a war but feel you lost your mind
I sit and talk to God about the path that I chose
"What does it profit a man to gain the world when he forfeits his soul?"
I asked him to let me in but feel the door finna the close
I had a dance with the devil that pussy stepped on my toes
Hard as concrete and fresh as a rose
Had to remind me I'm blessed and i'm chose
So whether I'm independent or they sign me bitch I'm destined to blow
Fuck a time sheet I need all my checks off these flows
I think back to an epoch when my life was simple
Shit was epic look at family pictures
Back when I was dancing in skinny pants before that nigga ran when I hit him
Before the grams that was insta before I got caught in that jam
And my man started snitching
Before I lost grams to a sickness
Before I got my hands on a pistol planning to zip em
Before all this damage was infinite
I can make it through I just need stamina,discipline
War scars on my heart at least these songs they bring peace to my mind
Dark thoughts I just need them to shine
But they've barely scratch the surface so fuck it
I'm digging deep inside paranoia creep in my mind
I ain't been sleeping at night
Ride with a cutter but it keeps them in line
Rhyme like no other now they peeping my style
My shit the hardest it come easy as sound
Let's get this squared away if they're not in my circle I don't need them around
They couldn't stay down I'd rather be in the presence of real hate before a fake smile
Give them an inch and they take miles
You supposed to ride to the wheels fall off or we break down
Mechanics couldn't fix the damage in my hood
They don't understand it or how i manage i'm good
I'm just trying to be the man that I should
I'm just trying to be the man that I should
I'm just tryna be the... look
They say I changed a lot I just think a lot changed me
They say a lot but they cannot see they made me they see a lot
I just act like i don't hear them though
I'll admit i'm not who I was a year ago shit is deeper
Than the physical the mental this is spiritual
Change inevitable i don't fear it though
All true stories ain't no fairytale
They gone wanna hear what i have to say just listen to me
Won it all but lost too much along the way, pyrrhic Victory, pyrrhic victory, pyrrhic victory