Growing Pains

And I just wanted to be heard
But didn't know how to speak
And now I'm somebody else
And that didn't change anything
And now I'm somebody else
And that didn't change anything
And now I'm somebody else
And that didn't change anything
And I just wanted to be heard
But didn't know how to speak
And now I'm somebody else
And that didn't change anything
And now I'm somebody else
And that didn't change anything
And now I'm somebody else
And that didn't change anything

Sometimes I wish that I was someone else
It's more often than not
Fuck, I might be selfish but I'm never satisfied with the love I already got
Trapped in a box, in this shell, sick of me and myself
Only evil lurkin round me is my thoughts
It's hard to get up some days, l started losing my faith and I don't know why
You think you know me? Bitch you don't know nothin bout me
The crack up on my shades, and the window right behind it
I been sippin on the finest, reminiscing on the times when
We was young, if I knew how it would be I would've never grown up
And please don't tell me that I'm slipping baby
Drive me crazy when I hear it
Its not you, I been acting real dismissive lately

Shit been waning on my spirit

I'm still chasing the past, like I'm racing for last
Put my faith in you, you put my heart in the trash
Now I'm wasting my time, wishing you'd take me back
Guess I was missing the signs that you ain't love me like that
So are you satisfied, with me outta your life
I was so damn wrong, to picture you by my side

And now that picture is cracked, and we just left it at that
I won't forget what we had, but I guess this is goodbye

Lately, I been feeling jaded
Lately, feel like shit been piling up and I hate it
Missing days we had the chalk on the pavement
Now I'm stressing something new on the daily
It's crazy
Straight edge, but I know I'm bending
Like maybe it really relieve the tension
But I don't wanna deal with my dads resentment
So I'm penning something 'bout the old days
Hoping it take me back to my old ways
Ripping out another note page
People near me acting so fake
I been telling 'em that shit is so played
Growing up isn't all it's made out to be

Ain't even solace in counseling
So I'm looking out over this balcony
Maybe I'll jump

And when I close my eyes, I hope the worlds still there
Cause if I'm speaking truly, it seems like nobody cares
And I wont chase after you
I can't lockdown anything
My faults and flaws bulletproof
They in and out like the waves
And you were supposed to heal me from my internal bleeding
Fuck

Wanted a table for two
But you just got one for three
And I was gunning for you
But you were caught losing me

And I just wanted to be heard
But didn't know how to speak
And now I'm somebody else
And that didn't change anything
And now I'm somebody else
And that didn't change anything
And now I'm somebody else
And that didn't change anything
And I just wanted to be heard
But didn't know how to speak
And now I'm somebody else

And that didn't change anything
And now I'm somebody else
And that didn't change anything
And now I'm somebody else
And that didn't change anything

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