Phantoms

Oh god
This is over my head
Is there nothing I can do to make this pain just end
Like hell I'll let this pull me down, I refuse to let this drag me six feet under the ground
Feels like this terrors always gripping my throat, constant frenzy causing me to erode
How much more will I be able to take
How much more before my sanity breaks
I can't tell you how this all began, is this the consequence for all my actions of sin
Deepen this fucking hole in my chest, dig my grave and lay this body to rest

This is my hell I've created, it feels like years that I've waited to fill my lungs and finally breathe

From the voice in my head telling me I'm already dead
Spirit separate from host, an empty shell, I'm just a ghost
I'm afraid, it's the price that I paid
My Panic on display, inside my mind, I'm writhing in pain

Waking up, not a sound, lungs collapse, no solace found
Tell me that it's all in my mind, facing fears of my own design

This is my hell I've created, it feels like forever that I've waited to fill my lungs and finally breathe

So many things that I could never explain, terrifying sensations, what is wrong with my brain
Breathing an ocean, suffocating on air, hands around my throat when there's nobody there

Can't feel, can't speak, lost faith, stop please

There is nobody there

Can't feel, can't speak, lost faith, stop please

There's never anybody there when I'm stranded, all hope is abandoned, my thoughts send me reeling
I can't shake this feeling
I'll never recover
Will I ever be normal
Will I ever be normal again

Can't feel, can't speak, lost faith, stop please