I Tried

I guess staying up till 4 in the morning ment nothing to you
I tried my best to make you happy
Latley I cant stand the way you been acting
Can't count how many times you stab me in the back
You stood and watched me bleed
I needed your help

But you never really cared
You was never there when I needed you
I was begging and pleading for you not to leave
You never even believed in the relationship
You was around in the morning
But you was messing with other guys in the night
How could you?

Knowing damn well I was trying my hardest for you
I cried so many nights over you
I've never even meet the sober you
You dont even notice that I'm trying to help you
'Cause you too busy scrolling through Tinder
While drowning your liver

Finishing that bottle of liquor

I tried to write you, but that shit was mark back return to sender
You playing with my emotions like
They not even there, like they a ghost
But I hope you know I tried and gave you my all
You only wanted sex
But I wanted the best for us
While you sexting and stuff I was busy trying to make a living for us
You was probably sending the same things to different guys
Even after the lies I tired to make us work

Now I'm realizing I was hurting myself in the process
This all could've been resolved if you stopped the nonsense
And actually talk to me about your problems
Why am I even ranting about you
When I don't even know who you are

I saw a picture of you last night
And I couldn't help myself but write this song
I know our relationship is long gone
Out the window
Out of the discussion
But dont you ever say I wasn't trying
You too busy doing your makeup to even notice
That I'm going extreme lengths to make you pleased
I dont even need you anymore
Leaving you was like pulling teeth
But being with you was something I couldn't win
Trying to fight your urges was something I couldnt defeat

I should've known when our love was decreasing
You cheated and acted like nothing happened
I never even got a sorry
I'm at this party and the only thing I can think about is you
I should've known I wasnt part of your plans
Feels like you left me stranded in the sand
I felt like I should put our story on demand
I love you but I cant stand you
Its kinda hard to Express my feelings towards you

But I'm through with you

And that's the hardest thing I've ever had to do
Was getting over you
I keep looking back and thinking what it
Would've been like if you didnt act the way you do
Hardest pill to swallow was figuring out you cheated
I felt so defeated I dropped down to my knees
Pleading to the lord that this whore couldn't have cheated

But she did

And I'll never forgive you
But that's part of being Christian
But I gotta keep listening to the lord
And maybe he can give me the strength to forgive
But I'm too weak

I just need a little me time
To think this through
You flew the coupe when shit was hitting the fan
You was never a fan of my music but I never really cared
I miss you but I dont at the same time
Not gonna lie I kinda miss us
But I gotta move on cause itll never work
I'm sorry, but I hope you know I tried