Ceiling Crumbs

I been posted up late night in my bed still, starin up at all the ceilin crumbs
I be all up in my head still, prayin one day I'mma feel the love
That all my friends claim, all my fam claim, watch em all fold, what a damn shame
What a damn shame, I just can't change, I just don't change, I just won't change

Workin on bein more open and shit
My momma still barely be talkin and that shit still bother me still
Feel like i owe her apologies still
Used to be scrollin through pictures and checkin on people to see if they follow me still
Lies make it hurt but the honesty kills
Swear that I won't but I probably will, but that's still progress though
I could hate but the hate don't work, and I think I want peace but I ain't so sure
Cuz it's always some niggas tryna make shit worse, got a few crip niggas put yo face on shirts
I put my faith on earth, and watched it all get burnt, had a bic lighter flicked on a laced up blunt
Used to skip the milk carton when i ate my lunch, niggas say they want action just to fake they stunts
Wow, so shockin
Tryna find out where my pops went
Posted up wit lil shorty lip gloss stuck on how the highlight poppin
5th grade Desiray had told me I was ugly and that shit had fucked up my heart
Last week Randee told me don't matter how ugly you draw it it's still gon be art

I been posted up late night in my bed still, starin up at all the ceilin crumbs
I be all up in my head still, prayin one day I'mma feel the love
That all my friends claim, all my fam claim, watch em all fold, what a damn shame
What a damn shame, I just can't change, I just don't change, I just won't change
I been posted up late night in my bed still, starin up at all the ceilin crumbs
I be all up in my head still, prayin one day I'mma feel the love
That all my friends claim, all my fam claim, watch em all fold, what a damn shame
What a damn shame, I just can't change, I just don't change, I just won't change