Everything Smells Different When It Rains

16 shots and I feel like shit
Maybe if I take one more I'll feel a bit, Better
Curled in my room in a long all black
Sweater
Smile on my face while I laugh
Feels like never
Tired of this
Don't wanna try all that
Well fuck it all
Fake it all
And put it all in a rap
I'll spit 16 bars
And think it sounds like crap
Put emotions in it make y'all feel all that

But I think about it
Everything I say sounds the same
Like my mind's in a box
Covered in a glass and a broken frame
Family looks at me and thinks that all is okay
But I'm tired, broken down and with my wings feeling all lame
Your words soundin all the same
Saying thing will be okay
what plays in my mind
Is sitting on replay
Like Life's like a movie
Stop and watch
And it's still just a sad day
Pause while I make it better
And clear up the smell of rain

I've been searching all my life
For something more than I could find
Through the years I search the dark
But can't find the light that once was in my heart
I've been searching all my life
For something more than I could find
Through the years I search the dark
But can't find the light that once was in my heart

Will I see it through
It was me and you
You and I up against world
Remember back when I told you
Everything was feeling different from the jump
You stepped back and you let it swirl
Can't search for another girl
Can't go and give her all the world
Tried so hard but the past got me feeling curled
Beaten down, broken down living in a happy world
Where sky's turn grey and bleed to the underworld

And I'm sick and tired
Of the same o feeling
Stabbed in the back
With no time for healing
Fake ass friends
Have Got me screaming
"God damn fuck you!"
And leave me bleeding
On the floor broken down
6 feet under the ground
Screaming for help
But people just walk around me
Nothing but hollowness Inside me
I Spread my wings and Im breaking free

I've been searching all my life
For something more than I could find
Through the years I search the dark
But can't find the light that once was in my heart
I've been searching all my life
For something more than I could find
Through the years I search the dark
But can't find the light that once was in my heart

I'm 20 years old
And I've experienced death
Not just inside of me
But my dearest friend
Would do anything to see her again
So I write letters to her with pad and a pen
And I know it's something that she'll never receive
But I gotta let her know she was the hero in me
Brought me up to light
When I was to weak to fight
Up against The demons I keep locked up inside my mind

But if I go and give you my only dollar
I know I'll make change and unhook this collar
That's kept me in the corner of my mind of four walls
And show you everything Smells Different when the rain falls
I'm so tired of feeling useless
Tried so hard but I'm going clueless
I don't think I can really do this
FUCK

I've been searching all my life
For something more than I could find
Through the years I search the dark
But can't find the light that once was in my heart
I've been searching all my life
For something more than I could find
Through the years I search the dark
But can't find the light that once was in my heart

Through the years I search the dark
But can't find the light that once was in my heart
Through the years I search the dark
But can't find the light that once was in my heart