Sins

My brother left there's no hate in my heart
Could of done more could of played my part
Could of had patience, could of showed love more
Could of not turned my back and showed him the door
But bro there's a difference between you and I
When bad things happen I don't ask God why
I take these road bumps on my chin slow down
Keep riding the wave and swim I won't drown
Can't hide the pain, I walk with a frown
Wanna get away to an unknown town
Tryna just get up I'm sick of being down
Meant to be on top but I can't find this crown
They want the old Meeks I'm long gone and dusted
All the shit I've witnessed got my mind busted
Put my faith in people I shouldn't have trusted
Lost a loyal bitch 'cus of others I lusted
Tryna make this right, this shit's going west
Not knowing what is right I'm really feeling this test
How do I solve this I don't want a scene
I can use my fists but I think of my Deen
Using these hands won't glue back the pieces
Can't find a way to iron out all the creases
I need to get away get my own space
Too much noise around me my heart pumps like bass
I need to read more, invest in knowledge
Fill my bookcase, learn like I'm in college
I'm all or nothing, not half way in between
If I'm shining then that means we both gleam
Thinking as a team, got that mentality
But a team ain't just me, it's a group strategy
A combined effort help given by us all
If one persons down, then we all fall
If I'm coming to the table, bringing all the food
That ain't what you call a team
That's you being rude
I'm done bein' patient, done losing my mind
No more waiting round won't waste more time
My prayer mat and my rhymes, that's all I need
They tell me that I'll burn for these lines I read
Judged for every action the same air we breathe
Focus on your sins and mine you can leave

Focus on your sins and mine you can leave