Deal With the Pain

I don't know why
I'm feeling this way
I'm watching time fly
Just fading away
I'm losing my mind
Trying to deal with the pain but
Whenever I write
I just keep wasting the paper

I'm lost for words Imma just
Keep spitting verses
I've been in the dirt
And been treated like I was worthless
You gotta trust me on this
We all serve a purpose
See I was in the dirt
I'm a diamond that hit the surface
Coz I was built from pressure over the years
All my peers switching sides
Like the footy and disapeared
But I'm still here
And all I need is myself
So I'm the only one accountable
With chasing the wealth I delve
Deep into the music scene
And got rejected neglected
And left for dead by the heads I respected
Meanwhile I see them giving other rappers love
That have no buzz
And haven't got near the level I rap above
They got no buzz
And they're pulling in all these women
I know jealousies a curse
And it's put me in this position
I hope they're swimming in pussy
And think they're winning
Till they can't unhear my name
And I got the game in submission it's Ascension

I don't know why
I'm feeling this way
I'm watching time fly
Just fading away
I'm losing my mind
Trying to deal with the pain but
Whenever I write
I just keep wasting the paper

And here I am in my room
Just making tunes
Just trynna make it through
To next week with little food
Mum does her best and the rest
Seem to assume
That I am just a bum with no money
I guess it's true
But if you wore my shoes
And lived a day in my life
You'd probably understand the picture
That I'm painting with strife
I stay awake in the night
Constantly praying for a greater day
But if I take the pain away
There's no way I could make it rain
See I was always the type of kid
That got picked last
The kids laughed at me coz I'm different
So I would spit bars
And formulate a plan to be the greatest emcee
They'll ever see with their eyes
Recreating the scene
The money making it clean
With nice cars and the house too
Teach the other people in my position the how to
I hope you're seeing the picture I'm trynna paint
With my words if you don't get it
There's something wrong with your brain

I don't know why
I'm feeling this way
I'm watching time fly
Just fading away
I'm losing my mind
Trying to deal with the pain but
Whenever I write
I just keep wasting the paper



Credits
Writer(s): Brendan Winslow
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