Drive

I stay awake by the cold wind on my face
Watch my life fall like snow out the window
My stupid pride hurts stronger than the pain in my side
Can't finish my fight, I leave and I drive
I'm in control, I thought I lost it awhile ago
But the wheel's in my hand, and my choices they land
I lived and learned but didn't learn to even live
The only thing I would do is the only thing I can't

They say you're a man now, but I have a lot of doubts
I ain't too proud, and I'm still tied down
To what hangs outside on that old black wire
It picks me up, but it's not enough
And I could do this forever, and it seems I have
I drink what's killing me just to save me when I should just hold back
Embrace the pleasure, push away the pain
She said, "I soaked your sheets", she's driving me insane
And I could love you forever, and you know I would
But all of this ain't eternal, I just know it's good

And I only see red and I only feel blue
I didn't mean to mean a thing to you
Now look what I have done

I'm home safe, and I'll take it for granted again
I should be locked away, I'll do it myself again
I use the vices of my father and his father and his father
And you say I'm not a man, well yes I am and I won't pretend
That I didn't do the things I did, I can't forget what I kept hid
Well look what I haven't done
Well I can still be someone