Survive (Dark Part 2)

How could I fall this far
How could I let myself go
Who could know I'd see the stars
And who could see the pain that I never show

I promised 3 words
That I didn't want to say
Cause If I fade away
All I want is to show my feelings
Collapsing inside a cold deceit
What even is death
If I'm already cold and weak
I'm sick of living in fear
Cause fear is me
I just wanna die
But I can't get release
It's funny every time I see you
It's like I'm drowning in fear
And at war with me
Still waiting for the time for peace
Crying while rapping is difficult
I wanna say these things
But I can't speak to you
I still want to die
But I don't know how to say goodbye
I don't wanna wait
But I might have to
I wish I said more
Instead I burnt it all
Cause when I fall
I'm thinking did life matter at all
Who was there for me
When I was standing tall
If you relate to me
Then this world is truly gone

How could I fall this far
Why did I let myself go
Who could know I'd see the stars
And who could see the pain that I never show

Taken away
The lights fading from my eyes
The ghost in my lies
I'm still unsure if I'll survive

I'm reminiscing about the lost days
The dark age
I am contemplating if I should stay
For the fame
Or if I leave them all behind
In exchange for eternal pain
I've waiting all alone in this room
The shadows watching me
They're following me haunting me
So bury me underneath the pain
And call my name then you can see
Why don't I feel things
That a human should
Why don't I really
Find a glass and make it go away
Why don't I change
These questions taking over
While I refuse to see
If I'm insane
Then why cant I feel the rain

How could I fall this far
Why did I let myself go
Who could know I'd see the stars
And who could see the pain that I never show

I'm digging through the mud trying to figure things out
It's funny how the cold is starting to mess with me now
In my room writing words still trying to live with this frown
My soul is torturing me and my mind is profound

Hold me close
I'm losing grip
Just don't go
I can't give in

How could I fall this far
Why did I let myself go
Who could know I'd see the stars
And who could see the pain that I never show

Live a life
I want to live a life
I don't wanna die

How can I change if I'm dead inside
How can I live if I'm dead inside
How can I live if I'm dead inside



Credits
Writer(s): Ricardo Mexas
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