Unbelievable Thought

Never had believed in love or been looking for a gorgeous mate
But something that summer day must've worked to coordinate
Us meeting each other, sparks working to formulate
An attraction to you strong enough to ignore debate
The way you carried yourself just had me soaring straight
A smile that opened up hearts, plus I adored your gait
Saw a girl who would ride with me in my poorest state
So I started falling for you at an abnormal rate
I got the courage to ask you out for a date
Thought if I didn't act now, no way the whore would wait
With all the cards stacked against me, it would bore the fate
Double the trouble cause I'm a four and your an 8
Add rejection, that's a bunch of shit more to plate
Did you like me for attention yet deplore my traits?
Nonetheless, a mutual rapport would correlate
Though I was hurting inside, I still swore it's great

I initially thought a friendship with you would work
But it took my emotions and pulled 'em through the dirt
Especially since my intentions were true at first
But I was lying to myself, and I got screwed the worst
My innocent lust for you turned into a gruesome thirst
So I hid it by turning myself into a jerk
Goddamnit, I can't win either way, I'm truly cursed
That's why I ghosted you, never again to immerse
I let a falsified angel turn me to Lucifer
With demons inside that I carried to the pews of chuch
What even was it in the air that had me drew to her?
And to think that I only spoke to the shrew in spurts
I can't believe I turned this shit into my newest verse
But I'm putting this to bed, ayo, cue the hearse
Maybe we could be friends again when our views concur
Or we could still be at odds, whichever you prefer

Nonetheless, in the end, with all that's said and done
We finna go our separate ways and with the best to come
No chance in hell I'm looking back at where I headed from
Me moving forward's the best option for everyone
Though it would've been fun if we would get it on
My life's a hundred times better for it with you gone
And this verse and situation that I'm spittin' on
Ain't even worth the fuckin' piece of paper that it's written on