Broken & Bent

Running from myself
Put my life up on the shelf
And this basement is my cell
Cause my mind is lost like hell

I've been living for this music
People wonder why I do this
Keep my head down kinda foolish
Wondering in my head so clueless

And I don't know what to do
Got shut out locked in my room
They got scared and that's the truth
It's my fault get out the noose

And finally, here's my voice
Kept it away and that's my choice
I've been thinking now its time
That this beat is the one of a kind

And you know now that I'm finally here
Gotta step up for all who wanna hear
Lives been messy and that's very clear
People so different whenever I appear

Never of thought of a day like this
Thinking about the times I go to miss
The pain that's inside me still really hits
How long can I go on for feeling like this

And that's fair, you know that I really still care
Alone in the dark, and the reaper is there
Waiting for me to slip up on my mind
I guess it seems like I do that all the time.

And it's real, my nightmares have came to a reality
My demons are with me they all wanna follow me
Losing to most of them, that is a tragedy
Now I'm alone my life is in agony

I'm sick of always feeling down
I'm tryna turn my life around
Now it's time that I climb out
From this void that I got dropped out
I'll keep going please stop sneaking around
Doing those things and leaving me out

Hope you know what I'm talking about
Keeping real leave the fakes all around
Losing to everyone bumping my sound
Maybe someday I'll reach up to the clouds

Till then I'll be making this music for you
Keeping it going for my beautiful crew
Supporting and helping whatever I do
Gone and so empty I'm finally through

Now whenever I go out
I feel so numb and I'm stressed out
Cause I don't know what this is about
Thought I was helping but left in doubt

I don't even know if I really wanna rap
ERROR on the beat that's where it's at
My time right here is closing really fast
Guess I'm someone that's just in the past

Tryna make time but it sure won't last
Will I be missed If I ever to pass?
The real ones pulling me up from this
Don't really wanna sit around like this

But there was history burned in the dust
Crumbled and left and all turned into rust
I know what's really going on no sus
These demons around me they're testing my trust

The hope that I kept for way too long
My mistake you're too far gone
Gotta keep this torch the path I've been on
Think its time that I finally move on

I just want to know what did I deserve
I guess I'm no longer accepted I'm sure
Never dragged down at all It's a blur
Whatever I'm nothing no more I heard