Schizophrenia

Got a homie that's fighting for joint custody
While my other homie smoke a joint to put his mind at ease
And I'm tryna move away from being just a lebo from the streets
I'm tryna chase that bag put the past behind me
But what do I do?
I close my eyes I just hear sirens
What do I do? oh when all I know is violence
Hey, hey, hey
I lost some of my brothers to schizophrenia
That's why I come across a bit off on the social media eh
You can never feel my pain
I've never been the same

They're saying I should take some time off
But I cannot shut my mind off yeah
I become one with the darkness (darkness)
Cannot even show you where my heart is

Used to pray to God to make me cold hearted
Then he made it
Never knew I'd end up being dangerous
I like burning bridges and ending relationships
I get in my feelings when I remember you ain't gave me shit

I've had all the odds against me ever since I was a seed
And I'm really tryna be the best me
I've had all the odds against me ever since I was a seed
And I'm tryna dodge the penitentiary

I'm twenty-four now when I was fourteen
Used to hang with the dealers and the robbers
Ten years later if you go back there
The same lebos still hang on the corners

This music shit ain't gone get me no good girls
I've accepted that
If I'm a dog you a rat
Mama raised me better and one day I'll pay her back
But now I cannot think of that
I'm just tryna take it one day at a time

Guilty conscious eats me alive
All the things I keep inside
I've been working on my pride
Got a lot of pain I hide

Everyone I've met in the industry time waste
Get up out my face
I get evil thoughts while I'm smiling
Every girl I've ever met has given me migraines
And I just wanna say
Are you adding to my pain
Or tryna take it away?
I'm tryna take it away

Do you know what it's like to look a good girl in the eyes
And just walk away
Knowing you can't be with her
Cause it's gone cause her pain
Cause this life that you chose
Comes with fame and these hoes
And it's not what I want
But it's not fair on me
To expect her to wait
So I guess that's why I changed

Yeah I've become one with the darkness (darkness)
I'm heartless
You stunted on me back then
I'll be coming back for revenge
Break a bitch walls down
Just to get inside her draws now
I'm bored of these whores now
I was born ready for war now
Yeah I hit up her friend
Give me the pussy out of respect
These bitches ain't shit to me
I call her babe she's just a pig to me

Got a homie that's fighting for joint custody
While my other homie smoke a joint to put his mind at ease
And I'm tryna move away from being just a lebo from the streets
I'm tryna chase that bag, put the past behind me
But what do I do?
I close my eyes I just hear sirens
What do I do? oh when all I know is violence
Hey, hey, hey
I lost some of my brothers to schizophrenia
That's why I come across a bit off on the social media
You can never feel my pain
I've never been the same