From the Heart, Pt. 1

Stuck between loving and promiscuity
Wanna be a lover
But I'm scared for ones pursuing me
I can be a handful
I'm full of inconsistencies
One day you're my heaven
Next week you're stuck with missing me
I'm serious about the grind
Frankly I don't have the time
Seen so many come and go
It's been the cycle of my life
That's why when you cry, I sigh
I don't know what to feel inside
Do I stay and settle
No, I'll add a detour to my life
Now I'm back to sipping Tangueray
With the homies
At Bliss night club
When this chick came and approached me with this nice ass
Her intention was getting to know me
Took her to the crib
Did the biz
The next morning
She hit me up
I never hit her back, she texted me "you're foney"
Never gave a damn, back to grinding cause y'all know me
Told my best friend about the story
She just shook her head
And told me "one day you'll be lonely"
Damn

Even when I'm not around
She wanna hold me down
I'm not ready for that now
She gon find out, she gon find out
She been calling all day to see if I'm gon answer my phone
But money's calling now
She gon find out

Im numb to the pain I used to feel
But best believe
I understand your grieving
It kills
That little ounce of hope that you possess
You want it to live on
Instead of living with regrets
But I'd rather tell you leave
Another would be good for you
I am such a wreck
Financially I'm not the dude
And you can say the money doesn't count
All that amounts is the love
But where is the love if I'm unfaithful
And I know that I'm unable
To be there when you need me
You call me and get upset
Cause I'm busy you wanna see me
The whole time I get pissed
Cause you're acting real needy
Threatening to leave me cuz I don't make time for we
I don't understand
Maybe because
I'm not yet a grown man
I am still young
But it is in my plan
To be there in time
Currently I gotta handle mine
I hope you're here in time

Even when I'm not around
She wanna hold me down
I'm not ready for that now
She gon find out, she gon find out
She been calling all day to see if I'm gon answer my phone
But money's calling now
She gon find out

2 years passed since we broke up
Living the life I always spoke up
Money for days
Enough to go nuts
So why am feeling like I am so crushed
I got chicks now
But I don't trust them
They only want the rewards
So I don't cuff them
I pull out quick soon as I bust them
Then dip out quick, cuz I'm not cuddling
Truthbetold, I really miss my friend
I reminisce often
About when
You would trip out, I wouldn't listen
Now I'm learning real loves close to non-existent
I wanna hit your phone
But I'm a tad bit
Embarrassed
How we ended
Not hopeful we'll be rekindling
This is exactly what I didn't want to happen
Though it's hard to tell by my actions (yea, it's hard to tell)
And it only makes it harder
Cause I'm seen as a role model
How can they follow me
When I'm fucking up
Just as bad as folks that admire me
We all human though
I never judge a man for his decisions
Only how he grows after
Never longing to be perfect
I'm not an actor
But I'm director of my life
No looking backwards
Gotta keep it moving forward
Like I'm Ford tough
And keep these lessons
Instilled mentally
Love

Now that I'm not around
He wanna hold me down
I don't want that now
That's what he found out, that's what he found out
He been calling all week to see if I'm gon answer my phone
He learned his lesson now
I bet he found out



Credits
Writer(s): Brandon Woolfolk
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