Intro

Yeah
Feeling mad emotions
Shit got me in my feelings
Aight, look
Life changed at like seventeen
More passionate than I have ever been
Going through more shit than I have ever seen
Looking at my idols, found myself a dream
Write the pain away, tryna' write me sane
Write about my life and 'bout what's on my brain
You ain't gonna realize 'fore it's too late
That you threw away your days, life gone to waste
Found a bunch of beats and started writing to it
The feeling I get, there ain't nothing to it
Another day, in my head another fight
Don't wanna be content with my fucked up life
Don't wanna live a life that I don't even love
Don't wanna reach the point where I had enough
All about the money, fam, fuck that shit
Never gave a fuck about being rich
Fuck this life, I gotta make a change
Pursuit of happiness, I gotta change my ways
It's in my hand to get the brighter days
Said I loved that shit, but that was just a phase
I noticed life ain't really what it seems
Really gotta learn to live it just for me
So fuck what you think and fuck what you're doing
That shit you talkin' 'bout just ain't what I'm pursuing
Fuck your business, I wanna live my dream
I made a plan, can't you see me scheme?
Fuck your opinion, just let me be me
Just do yourself, man, it's that easy
Gotta prove to only myself that I can do this
Can't care 'bout opinions, man that shit is foolish
They be hitting your line, tell these fuckers "who this?"
Be the honest with myself, gotta be the truest
Go do something with your life
Said that for years, still scared to strive
I know it's all in my own mind
Still so scared of what I'll find
So many people died and they ain't even try
To attain their dreams and I'm wondering why
Cause it's make-believe, do what you love
It's fake to me, that push came to shove
Same old day, just another week
Depressed as fuck, just wanna go to sleep
Ain't afraid to talk about it, being honest here
This the place to talk about my fears
Looking at the world thinking "who am I?"
Just another one? Or is there more to me?
Looking in the mirror thinking "who am I?"
Man, I am me and I'm proud to be
We all going through shit, man we know of this
So much hate we face, on your phone that is
Like a baby face, but old we is
Don't know shit, we been over this
Social media gave me major doubts
Unfollowed everybody, you can keep that clout
I don't care about the fucking likes
I don't care about your great fake life
Cause everybody know that shit is just a facade
All that shit be doing is making a mirage
Smiles on the gram, we all know that's fake
Like some halloween mask you're wearing on your face
I know I gotta try before I die
Otherwise I can never be satisfied
Why keep on living when you hate your life?
Wasting time you don't have doing shit you don't like
Lately I been thinking about my fears
Thinking 'bout this life and 'bout why I'm here
So many thoughts people will never hear
So here it goes, I'll try to make it clear
I'm scared of heights and I'm scared to fly
I'm scared of change and I'm scared to try
I'm scared of truth and I'm scared inside
Scared of anything, guess I'm just scared of life
Why am I thinking 'bout my legacy?
Why am I so focussed on my destiny?
Too much thinking "will they remember me?"
How long will it take 'fore they forget 'bout me?
I know what it's like when you had enough
I know what it's like when this shit gets rough
I know what it's like, but don't give up
When you fall, you gotta get back up
So scared of living an average life
Always been kinda scared to strive
Always felt like I was destined for more
But if I don't live my dream, what am I dreaming for?
Comparison is the thief of joy
Gotta learn to sit back in the moment and enjoy
Stop caring what other people think of me
Living for me, all that shit just sickens me
Even if I fail, at least I fucking tried
Tried to pursue my dreams before I fucking die
I know I can do this, don't you fucking lie
Telling me to quit this shit, ask these fuckers "why?"
Rapping in the mirror, envisioning the stages
Thinking of a life that is fucking crazy
Every day that I'm alive, man, it must amaze me
Rap about my past, about the things that made me
Waking up at 5, thinking "what am I doing?"
Going to school for a life I'm not even pursuing
I doubt myself, I know I prolly shouldn't
Only know it's too late when you feel the bullet
Rewrote this track like 10 fucking times
OCD, I wasn't satisfied
Had this beat on repeat for the entire week
Tryna' catch the vibe, tryna' bring the heat
Lately more than ever I been laying on my bed
Staring at the ceiling with these questions in my head
Thinking 'bout this life and why I'm always feeling sad
Thinking 'bout my moves and why everything feels bad
Know I gotta find peace, gotta be in myself
Really gotta start thinking about my mental health
They pursuing money, that ain't the key to wealth
Fuck the others, gotta think 'bout yourself
What do you think at the end of the road?
Looking back on your life and everything you were told
All they been feeding you was lies everyday
Which made you doubt yourself, you ain't feeling okay
They will always pick on the people that are different
Listen to your mind and listen to your vision
We are different homie, it's like night and day
Believe in myself, fuck what they say
Lately all this shit has been weighing me down
Really think it's gon' get the best of me now
They say keep on swimming and I ask 'em "how?"
When all I do is feel like I'll drown
Anyway I guess I gotta keep my head up
Working hard, hoping things will get better
Didn't come this far to throw it all away
Keep your head up, tomorrow is a brand new day
Fuck man
I just feel like
Man, it's just been weighing on me man
Been feeling like, I just, had to get it out
Shit's been eating at me
Damn man
Aight