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My brain feels like it's overloading
And saying, "Oh, you think you know self-loathing?"
But I've got great methods of coping
Countless bowls I'm smoking
And friends who'll keep me from strolling into traffic

But friends leave and climb up social rungs
And when the smoke hits my lungs
It doesn't take too long till I'm right back at step one
So I will call you every night when I'm freaking the fuck out
You're probably used to it by now
You've probably got your script out

"So when you go to sleep, they will cleanse you of your sins
They will let you start again, you'll remember all your friends
And all the times that you guys killed or that you spent."
You always had this way with words that got me back into my head

But do I need that?
I don't need that
But could we stay on the phone?

But I guess enough is enough
One more thought before you hung up
You talked about a boy who asked for too much
I didn't fucking listen, I sat and I shrugged

"So when you soon wake up, they will know just what you did
They'll be coming for your head, they will tear your soul to shreds
So I suggest you run and hide while you still can."
Maybe not the words I wanted, but I've got this blood on my hands
And I can't clean them