Fear

14 when I hit the blunt
I was hanging with the big dogs just a runt
I was trying to stunt man didn't want to confront
My thoughts were all guided by the devil I shunned
16 couldn't feel my hands
On my bike riding home couldn't understand
Man this thing I call myself is sinking in quicksand
Think I'm starting to lose my shit man
18 face paralysed
Guess that I shouldn't act that surprised
I have learnt to avoid looking in my eyes
Who this dude in the mirror I don't recognise
24 and it's still the same
Thinking of new ways to numb the pain
Any day could be my endgame
Dread is part of my membrane

I can't feel my hands can't feel my face
I keep hoping for some better days
Medicated I fucked up my brains
Baby would you please just share my pain
It's crazy I can't feel my hands can't feel my face
I keep hoping for some better days
Medicated I fucked up my brains
Baby would you please just share my pain

Share my pain
Looking for them better days
We was at the park like everyday and all we did was smoke
Laughing at my pain like everyday 'cause life's a fucking joke
Buying weed and such from cousin — even though I'm broke
Drown in pools of liquor I could never ever sip it slow
Tell me why the summer feeling like the coldest season
Fucking demons fucking with me for no fucking reason
No inspiration so I told my dogs I'm fucking leaving
I love you niggas but I'm sorry yo I'm fucking leaving

Big black cloud hanging over me
I maintain anxiety
Try to fix it abstain sobriety
Need to kill off a demon that's inside of me
Shouldn't tell mum
She'll be worried 'bout what I've become
Keep it buried inside me I run
Getting worried it's how it'll be
Vision blurry I lost track of me
She truly knew me has gone
She could soothe me I try to hang on
But it's hard to reflect when you're scared of yourself
Alone isolated in need of some help
Man I've been feeling this way
Shit I've been running away
Keeping my demons at bay
Dealing with this for the longest
I love you but no I can't stay

I can't feel my hands can't feel my face
I keep hoping for some better days
Medicated I fucked up my brains
Baby would you please just share my pain
It's crazy I can't feel my hands can't feel my face
I keep hoping for some better days
Medicated I fucked up my brains
Baby would you please just share my pain

Should probably leave the house haven't been outside for days
And I know that you mean well but now I really need my space
Need to pick myself up again get back to my old ways
Always
Should probably call you promised to keep you up to date
But it's hard to explain it
I fear that you just won't relate
Wish I could go back want to undo all my mistakes
Too late

I can't feel my hands can't feel my face
I keep hoping for some better days
Medicated I fucked up my brains
Baby would you please just share my pain

Let's go let's go
Better days
I be looking for them better days



Credits
Writer(s): Jan Lemmens, Fahad Seriki, Yello Staelens
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