Therapy

I'm not doing this rapping shit to be a "rapper"
I'm doing this for motivational purposes only
I know from the outside looking in everything seems like it's always "all good" and positive
But with this, I'm giving y'all the real me
The 100% raw, the uncut, the rated R version of my life and my thoughts
This is a form of therapy for me
This shit gives me the opportunity to externalize all my emotions
Along with some of the biggest battles I Face on a daily basis
So ima leave y'all with this
Never let fear make any of your decisions
Stay solid, never fold, and be 100% you 100% of the time

So many blessings but still I'm in a dark place
Anxiety I'm feeling got my checking on my heart rate
Battling depression, fighting everyday man I'm tired of all this stressing
Lord I got so many questions
A lot of things I wonder, Will i ever get an answer
Why i lose my aunt to this bitch named cancer
How these other dudes make it and they don't go as hard as me
Gave this game my heart even down to my arteries
Why the good die young I'm thankful that I'm breathing
Does everything really always happen for a reason
was it in the plan when you made me miss that season
Half a million followin they still fucking sleeping
Feel like it's nothing but evil that's surrounding me
Hard to catch a breath why I feel like it's drowning me
Starting writing raps just to help with me my mental
That's why I'm letting out my pain on this instrumental
Fuck my girl to sleep then I go and grab the pencil
Listen up I'm writing bout all the shit I been through
Despite all the bullshit that come with life
Still Talk to god before I sleep pray I make through the night
Devil telling me to quit won't go down without a fight
Shit It's dark up in this tunnel but at the end I see the light
Put my city back 860 on the map
TLB in my veins so I went and got a tat
Living life all in fear of anxiety attacks
It's like I'm walking thin ice any moment it can crack
It's like I'm trapped
Do I want it all to really end
Shit we started off as brothers but now we hardly friends

These are the thoughts I be thinking alone
Everything that shine ain't always gon be gold
And I be going through shit you ain't know
Gotta stand strong on my own I won't fold
This was never a part of my plan
I just took whatever god put in my hand
I fell a lot in the end I'm gon stand
Let the marathon continue I'm saying

This that dollar and a dream shit
That believing in yourself when nobody believed it
Never take no handouts promise you don't need it
Wonder why you ain't make it double check your reasons
My passion is what's got me to this point
Scared they'll never bump my shit cuz I never rolled a joint
And I ain't never drink no lie I'm grinding never in the mix
Built this shit from ground up brick by brick
Hope your homies never fold pray that they never switch
It was the ones that was closest to me tried to take my chick
Evaluate your circle who you label as your clique
Just Remember Paid in Full and what Rico did to Mitch
Life gon knock you on your ass just make sure you never quit
Wanna chase yo dreams but you too scared to take the risk
Man I bet y'all wanna just skip the whole process
Want the end results but could give a fuck about the progress
Let that just digest I'm tired of holding shit in
One thing I'll never is fucking TRY to fit in
Tryna save a generation when I know it can't be saved
These 9-5's got us shackled like we modern day slaves
To y'all the grind is trendy to me that shit engraved
Changed my whole fucking life when coach didnt let me play
That same passion for game then transitioned to weights
Made the choice to quit the team TLB started the next day