Shade of Everything's Okay

As I lay here thinking on this hospital bed
I'll write these words left unsaid
So you don't decipher my head
I think the blood loss has affected my brain
But now I feel less insane
I still remember your names
And to be honest I did not see the light
And I didn't put up a fight
This time it won't end up alright
Unlike their words the puncture runs much too deep
I guess my lungs can't compete
I know this mountain's too steep

So burn away my bones and skin
And hope I never cross your mind again
I'll just fade away into a shade
Of black and white and everything's okay

If I thought to myself that I'm finally set free
No need for self-therapy
How fucked could I actually be
It seems this smile has been set to decline
Laugh to myself 'til I'm blind
Let my breath wane and unwind
And so discouraged as I finally weep
Play my life back on repeat
As I accept my defeat
And to the best friends that I actually had
And family that might be sad
I wrote this down cause I'm glad

So burn away my bones and skin
And hope I never cross your mind again
I'll just fade away into a shade
Of black and white and everything's okay

So take what's mine with every single thing I leave behind
And mask the pain with every memory of yesterday

So burn away my bones and skin
And hope I never cross your mind again
I'll just fade away into a shade
Of black and white and everything's okay