Envious

Man, I've been feeling envious
How long have i been doing this?
There's no results for my effort its feeling strenuous
At the beginning i was just so damn oblivious
Don't know why i expected this world just to be so generous

I see these dudes making millions
From music that falls hella short from being brilliant
What the hell is wrong with these tracks that I've been building?
Maybe i should stop and try something more fulfilling cause i just

I've been feeling envious
I want success more than my next breathe
I stay awake at night wondering what to do next
While these mumble rapping hood rats make fat stacks
That's more cash than I've ever seen in my past

And its bullshit
Its hard to admit
My career bit the dust before i could even start it
I guess my mind is unfit, maybe its time to submit
There's so many demons that i guess i lack the skills to outwit

So this is it
I think this time i'm done with this shit
I guess i chose the wrong dreams to commit
Ima go trash the rhymes that i writ the time that i spent
Should've listened to everyone that said id never make it

Then i start thinking how i feel when i spit
All of a sudden i'm not so much of a fuckin' misfit
That's the thing about falling into a bottomless pit
You got time to figure out how to get the hell out of it

So fuck that shit
Ima be the king of this bitch
Go ahead grab the edge and pull myself out of this ditch
Fuck all the people who doubted i'm burning every bridge
Sure we'll meet again, when you see that i became rich

But fuck that shit
You wont get a penny i pinch
Funny how a couple comma's flip people just like a switch

Everyone's venomous
They probably wont even be into this
And that's why at the end of the day
They still got me feeling like i'm envious

Yeah, cause I've been feeling envious

Fuck it

I've been feeling envious
Of all the friends, all the fans, all the girls, all the bands
All the pride, all the plans
Its supply and demand, but i still cant find a way get a mic inside my hand
Feeling like this journey is god damned

Haven't been getting much sleep
I lie awake thinking how much all this shit means to me
How much will i really be giving up and sacrificing?
I cant drop this shit now its so close it is agonizing

Its tantalizing
I'm always over analyzing
When someone else gets on the mic, and they rap and they sing
God i need sign or message man i mean anything
Please let me know if i'm even doing the right fucking thing

You've been where i am you know it hurts like a bitch
All these punches keep coming you gotta try not to flinch
I'm losing several hundred meters i'm only gaining an inch
My focus is fading i might go grab a bottle and binge

But that feeling doesn't compare when i spit
All of a sudden i'm not so much of a fuckin' misfit
That's the thing about falling into a bottomless pit
You got time to figure out how to get the hell out of it

So fuck that shit
Ima be the king of this bitch
Go ahead grab the edge and pull myself out of this ditch
Fuck all the people who doubted i'm burning every bridge
I'm sure we'll meet again, when you see that i became rich

But fuck that shit
You wont get a penny i pinch
Funny how a couple comma's flip people just like a switch

Everyone is venomous
They probably wont even be into this
And that's why at the end of the day
They still got me feeling like i'm envious

(Voicemail)

Fuck that shit
Ima be the king of this bitch
Go ahead grab the edge and pull myself out of this ditch
Fuck all the people who doubted i'm burning every bridge
I'm sure we'll meet again, when you see that i became rich

But fuck that shit
You wont get a penny i pinch
Funny how a couple comma's flip people just like a switch

Everyone's venomous
They probably wont even be into this
And that's why at the end of the day
They still got me feeling like i'm envious