Hello!

Do you know that feeling?
When everything you do seems like a struggle.
Where you dont wanna leave the house
Because you know everyone is judging you.
Where you cant even ask for directions in fear that they critise you.
Where everyone always seems to be picking out your flaws.
That feeling where you feel so damn sick for no reason.

Do you know that feeling where you look in
The mirror and completly hate what you see.
When you grab handfuls and handfuls
Of fat and just want to cut it all off.
That feeling when you see other handsome
Boys and just wish you looked like them.
When you compare yourself to everyone you meet.
When you realise why no one ever showed interest in you.
That feeling where you become so self
Conscious you dont even turn up at school.
That feeling when you feel so disappointed
In who you are and everything you have become.
That feeling when every bite makes you wanna be sick.
When hunger is more satifying that food.

The feeling of failure when you eat a meal.

Do you know that feeling when you cant run as far as your class.
Fear knowing that everyone thinks of you as the"
Unfit FAT BITCH" That feeling when you just
Wanna let it all out but you dont wanna look weak.
The fear you have in class when you dont

Understand something but your too afraid to ask for help.
The feeling of being to ashamed to stand up for yourself.

Do you know the feeling when your deepest fear becomes a reality.
Fear that you will NEVER be good enough.
When you feel as if you deserve all the pain you give yourself.
When you finally understand why everyone hates you.
FINALLY realising the harsh truth.
Understanding that every cut, every burn,

Every bruise you have even given yourself, you deserved.
In fact you deserved worse.
That feeling when you believe you deserve constant and brutal pain.

Do you know what it feels like to just want to give up.
When you just want all the pain to end but you want it to continue?
Or am i just insane