Disorganized

Oh
I am so disorganized my love I've tried to find
A way to clean and dust the clutter in my mind in my mind
I've got to write some more to flush out everything oh everything
That brews and fucking stews inside my mind inside my mind I'm
Asking for some patience with me patience with me patience with my
Silly lips that don't know what to say, what to say
Running down the train then down the street my aching feet they fly on
Clouds that seep up from the subway grates subway grates
And

I don't want to fall into all the same old rhythms I knew before I knew you Oh
I don't want to make all the same mistakes I shouldn't I did before I met you

I just want to hold you but I told you that I'm busy so that
I don't have to make up an excuse
Of lying when I know that you really love me do you love me I've been
Fearing all the paths that you could choose if I lose and

I don't want to fall into all the same old rhythms I knew before I knew you Oh
I don't want to make all the same mistakes I shouldn't I did before I met you

It gets hard it bubbles up and I try to ignore it
And I fear you are out there in a different orbit
And I know we can fight and love and live our lives before it
Gets bad, but are we better for it

I can see you're tired oh so tired and I'm wired off of
Stress and things that I don't understand
But winning isn't winning if I've lost from the beginning
'Cus the rhythms and the lying
And the phone calls and the crying stir
The boiling pot of nothing in my mind in my mind in my mind