I'm Sorry

I know I haven't always been the best friend, and
Not sticking around and waiting for the ending
I've jumped ship more times than I can count
But I don't wanna be about kicking you while you shout

I wanna be there to help the people in my life
While still walking my own path towards the light
But it's a difficult thing to combine
Like mixing Vanilla Coke with fine summer wine

I know I've let you down, turned your smiles into frown
Don't how why, or when or how but I wanna make it up somehow
I helped destroy the things I'll try to rebuild
And I won't stop until your wishes are fulfilled

Please forgive me, I wanna try to change my ways
I know I've put you through some bad, but now I'm heading for better days
If you stick with me and give me just another try
I'll erase the pain I caused and lift you up to the sky

So sorry for the things I've done
That I'm not always around
So sorry for the things I've done
That I'm not always around

I ain't gonna lie, some of you deserved
Exactly what you got, I know it sounds absurd, but
I believe in an eye for an eye,
But I don't know why I didn't try and talk it out first

I felt bloodthirst, I guess, lusting for revenge
Angry, hence not comprehending feelings of friends
That always stuck by me through all the bullshit
All the drama filled my mind, I started feeling sick

Sick of everything, everyone and every place
Every scenario and every overused phrase
With a taste for disaster in my past
I let it spill out onto the people that I thought would last

Looking back on what I did, I feel terrible
All the things I did to y'all, how the hell did you
Forgive me for my sins and stay my friends?
I promise that I won't mess up again, I learned my lesson

So sorry for the things I've done
That I'm not always around
So sorry for the things I've done
That I'm not always around