My First Body

I was always told to
Not avenge myself and leave it to the good wrath of the lord you know but
When it comes to my anger and dealing with things I've dealt with
In this world, I feel like vengeance needs to be mine
You feel me?

When I think about it homie, I don't think I was ever cool with him
From the sandbox, knew his mom and pops and I even went to school with him
We were forced to be friends man, of course it would end
Same song and in tune with 'em
Was a sad casualty, like some dead batteries
Nothing I could do with 'em
Everything he did I got in trouble for
Pulling me into it like it's tug of war
Fuck it, I'm trippin' and now I want a war
I'm about to jump without a bungee cord
This shit isn't meant, in fact I won award

Creator kept sendin' me to a dummy door
Made it my enemy now my brother yours
Sick with the wizardry, who was Dumbledore
Fathom the fate, it'll leave your stomach sore
Hungry for murder, give me a number four
Did it in vain, there's an IV stuck in yours
Hack 'em up like I'm gettin' data stuck in the motherboard
'Cause either I'm corrupted or had trouble shooting 'em
But of course made 'em sleep, death, to cord
To where the court was unimportant
This is my life but it's you they highlight, what this for?

But the ball is in my fucking court
I'm in all black, pick your fate like a motherfucking judge in court
Get it by my lonely, child with support
Hold on let me shut the door, I caught 'em in the bathroom
Blood and gore, I'm about to drug 'em more
Drug 'em towards the abandoned church, blood I had to
His last words were, "I love you" said, "I love you more"
Then I watched him die from the overdose, sad news
Tarell won't be coming home tonight, I didn't condone his life
Be blessed, get at you

'Cause I really live this life, this ain't no hobby (this ain't no hobby)
This sound like mental wards, I'm in the lobby (I'm in the lobby)
I'm fucked up, watch my drink for me, you got me?
While I tell 'em 'bout how I caught my first body (my first body)
I really live this life, this ain't no hobby
This sound like mental wards, I'm in the lobby
I'm fucked up, watch my drink for me, you got me?
While I tell 'em 'bout how I caught my first body

If you a friend, it's time to say toodle-oo
'Cause ain't no possible way he can ever be true to you
Careful your appointment could do the due
If he wants to kill his self
What the fuck you think he wanna do to you
My first body

I remember that reincarnated killers back
I just popped like 16 bars and told myself that issa wrap
Sara gone, I told Kiana on the phone, I'm finna pass
Woke up by my nigga Matthews
Mom, step pops was chilling back
Put me in the whip and dashin' frantic
Hope this nigga crash
Got me to the 'spital and they said I'd be admitted fast
Back at school them niggas laughed
My spit is black off ipecac
Before Kathartic vids I really was forced to take Citrahtak

Diagnosed with this and that, I'm popping pills like tic and tacs
Mercy lasting, hope a man, yo Douglas where I'm living at
Exposed to sex so young, the only way I cope is when I swack
Molested, now I check in mental wards like where the bitches at?
I am so Brainsick in fact, where the fuck is Twisted at?
Fuck a beef, I love you G, I hope I get my nigga back
Fuck this music shit, I really live what I put in my raps
Went to war with Iso and I'm not sure if I killed his ass

Because I really live this life, this ain't no hobby (this ain't no hobby)
This sound like mental wards, I'm in the lobby (I'm in the lobby)
I'm fucked up, watch my drink for me, you got me?
While I tell 'em 'bout how I caught my first body
I really live this life, this ain't no hobby
This sound like mental wards, I'm in the lobby
I'm fucked up, watch my drink for me, you got me?
While I tell 'em 'bout how I caught my first body

If you a friend, it's time to say toodle-oo
'Cause ain't no possible way he can ever be true to you
Careful your appointment could do the due
If he wants to kill his self
What the fuck you think he wanna do to you
My first body

I overcame my fear along time ago
Death don't scare me
I been there, done that
But I'm back
World War Me