Wings

My stress was just a blessing in disguise
Counting seconds fore we pass the finish line
In my eyes, I was rapping to survive
If I don't speak my mind I will never do the time

My stress was just a blessing in disguise
Counting seconds fore we pass the finish line
In my eyes, I was rapping to survive
If I don't speak my mind I will never do the time

Felt like time was frozen in a fucking instant
Decisions based off luck and intuition
My heart Poured out on every verse I've written
Got no love left to give them
So now it's fuck the system
I'm sick of what it did to me
It got me thinking industry
Before any more shit's released
Asking, can I ever make a mill off these?
Most likely not
So I tighten knot
And claim writer's block gotten into me
The inner me can't cope with all the fronting
I'm jumping on my twitter feed and telling lies in public
When asked about my progress I regress back to bluffing
Like fuck this, I'll jump ship
I'll bump up the budget
Then bang

Jump back in with a whole new energy
Devil speaks louder than god so I block what they telling me
Listen for melodies hidden beneath all the jealousy
Seventeen feet from the edge
Then I jumped to my death and the darkness enveloped me
Take 3 shots to the head like a Kennedy
Blow Blow Blow and the Ketamine tempting me
Got me addressing these things only way I know how
I lift up the liquor to mouth
Drink till my cheek on the ground
Wish I could say something else so my momma'd be proud
But fuck it, I feel like i'm stuck in a rut and I just cant get out
Wish I was stronger like more like my father
I call out, I shout
And all of a sudden, just nothing
I pick up the pen and I write this shit down
I write this shit down

If I could grow wings I would fly away
If I could grow wings I would fly away

My stress was just a blessing in disguise
Counting seconds fore we pass the finish line
In my eyes, I was rapping to survive
If I don't speak my mind I will never do the time

My stress was just a blessing in disguise
Counting seconds fore we pass the finish line
In my eyes, I was rapping to survive
If I don't speak my mind I will never do the time

I'm sorry that this shit got kinda heavy
Carried other people's problems
Couldn't lift what I was benching
So I fell
I know I shouldn't tell other's stories
But the shit we keep ignoring
That's the wounds that never heal
So I spill
They say what doesn't kill you makes you stronger
But the stronger doses kill
Got a homie who had told me
If it wasn't for his family
He would fucking kill himself
This shit is real
This shit is real
I didn't know how I could help
But I sat down by his side and I listened to his tale
It was just another night, well as far as I could tell
With tears all in his eyes, he talked me through all his regrets
He'd written up a list of why he thought he ain't worth shit
You tripping dawg
I don't wanna get involved
But from where i'm sitting, this is all sounding different
To the kid I usually kick it with, you got it twisted
You got it twisted
I'll admit we haven't talked about since
But it's never left my head
I'm not religious but I prayed that god protect him
I pray he find direction
And in the meantime I'll keep an eye out for my brethren
Catch the devil sweating

If I could grow wings I would fly away
If I could grow wings I would fly away

My stress was just a blessing in disguise
Counting seconds fore we pass the finish line
In my eyes, I was rapping to survive
If I don't speak my mind I will never do the time

My stress was just a blessing in disguise
Counting seconds fore we pass the finish line
In my eyes, I was rapping to survive
If I don't speak my mind I will never do the time