Half Life

An old man sits in the living room
Waiting for the day to fly by
Another season ending soon
Hand in hand, a couple strolls on by
He watches them, knowing soon
Their union soiled and love denied
Another endless afternoon alone
One gone - one left behind

And at the time we could not see - he had already left us
At that time we could not say if we could ever redeem him
And in the time it took to kneel, we had already lost him
The moment focused, feeling real, we left him that way

All the former things are passed away
And I find that I'm not even hungry
All my stains are washed away
I am cleansed of the need to atone
In disquiet and dismay, conversion vainly implores me
Belief systems in the way
Still I knew the last ending was all wrong

Of all the things we had to say, there was silence between us
As the era passed away, we had fewer to blame
Looking back upon those days, nothing redeemed us
He was begging us to stay
We extinguished the flame

And behold, the Grigori sang:
From the flesh we are torn - Exploding stars
Some believe to be reborn back into whatever we are

I, too, shared the passion that he wielded in this life
As did he, I bathed in experience, in accomplishment and strife

Life is a test and we are scarred each time we fall
Eternal rest awaits us all so I want to taste it all
I cherished every moment that I can barely now recall
All the pain, the sex, the sickness; Oh, the wonder of it all!

Now everything is various shades of black
My memory is subject to attack

Apostle of one – my will begun
Thy Kingdom is done - less than none
No fear of what's in store...

In the final days, he passed away
Yet here we stay rejoicing o're the grave

Dreams are frayed - And soon decay
And pass away - And play dead

And from the corner of my eye
I swear I could see it there
A prismatic flare... a trick of light...
And God simply floated away from me
Thus punished, I prayed for a reason why
No explanation was given
And when no one answered me
I assumed I was already forgiven

There was nothing left to say, the end already upon us
We were set within our ways, at the edge of forever
Inexorably toward the grave, all potential behind us
In the moment we were saved there was silence forever

"And at the ending of this life
There is nothing else waiting," he said.
And I cannot live this lie for the sake of another
And as everything turned white
He closed his eyes and cried
"I was so wrong..."
Then he spoke to Another
...And another
...And another

And the Grigori sang
I have nowhere else to be
I have nothing more to do
There is no one here with me
Still, I don't believe...
That it ended this way