Effort (Be Around)

I don't wanna be around,
If your not down I won't be around
Lately, you don't want me now
And I don't even need it
Girl you're all in my mind
I just want your time
Never seen the signs
Now I know you're lying
I don't wanna be around,
If your not down I won't be around

Effort
You don't show enough effort
I'm scared I'm gonna get hurt
Man your making my head hurt
Have me up late at night thinking is it all worth it
Tell me are you worth it?
'Fore you leave me hurting
To me you're more than a person
I'm searching for the words in-
But wait you leave me uncertain
Made me feel like a burden
You left me when I was hurting
Now I'm wondering should I stay around
Can't even pull up to your house
Can't lie I've been plagued by doubts
You left and I took a different route
It was something I never announced
But
All I wanted to do was shout
Stay or drown
Cause staying would hurt deep down
But leaving wouldn't make me feel proud
All I need is some effort,
Or is that something I'm not allowed to have

I don't wanna be around,
If your not down I won't be around
Lately, you don't want me now
And I don't even need it
Girl you're all in my mind
I just want your time
Never seen the signs
Now I know you're lying
I don't wanna be around,
If your not down I won't be around

Just cause they in my DM's
That don't mean that I'm gon' see em
Something I've been repeating
Since the moment I grabbed the mic and started preaching
Ha
Lemme take y'all back to when I wore a bunch of white & black
Back to when I had a million tracks
No friends cause they that would make me collapse
Back when every week would bring my relapse
God sent me you but that went bad
So please don't give up on me, I'm goin' back
Back to bad but back in my bag
Never thought that this friend thing would last
But my past just wants to clap
Wants to see me in my grave so my old friends could laugh
Can't even focus in class
Anxiety got me sinking bad
But all I wanted from you is a little effort
To be around
So maybe I won't focus on why I'm feeling down

I don't wanna be around,
If your not down I won't be around
Lately, you don't want me now
And I don't even need it
Girl you're all in my mind
I just want your time
Never seen the signs
Now I know you're lying
I don't wanna be around,
If your not down I won't be around

Maybe we can travel all over town
Or maybe we'll just sit at home on the couch
I ain't asking for much,
But please just be around

Lately, you don't want me now
Girl you're all in my mind
I just want your time
Never seen the signs
Now I know you're lying
I don't wanna be around,
If your not down I won't be around