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My suicidal thoughts growing daily
Had a talk with God, he said he don't wanna save me
Pills in my palm, I don't care how much I'm taking
Will I go to heaven?, Man, I don't know maybe
I guess no one can save me now
I guess no one can save me now
No one can save me now
No one, no one can save me now

I had a conversation with death
And told him bring my grandfather back and take me instead
Cause I can't find a fucking reason to live
My mom is telling me to read the Bible
And seek God so my demons won't exist
She keeps going on with the same old shit
Pedro Javier better pray to Jehovah quick
That shit never works, cause I'm forever hurt
I often try to heal the pain, with the couple pills I take
The Lord said he would never forsake
But there he go leaving me in this trouble state
Watching life fucking punch me in the face
I placed my pain on plenty of pages, this stress ain't stopping
So I'm guessing suicide is the best option
I know that once I do it all this pain goes away
And I don't expect a bunch roses thrown on my grave
I was just about to do it and started having second thoughts
Then death started to talk and then I heard him say
You wanna kill yourself?, then fucking do it
Nobody fucking likes you or your music, you're fucking loser
Been without a job since April
Your mom wants you out cause you don't pay bills
Taking pain pills, you been depressed for months
Hard to thank God for blessings
Your bank account's on negative
So why live another day?, you're always stressing
Wanna kill your problems?, today's the day you die
Swallow all the pills in the bottle and start to wave goodbye

My suicidal thoughts growing daily
Had a talk with God, he said he don't wanna save me
Pills in my palm, I don't care how much I'm taking
Will I go to heaven?, Man, I don't know maybe
I guess no one can save me now
I guess no one can save me now
No one can save me now
No one, no one can save me now

I had a conversation with love
And asked her why the fuck she keeps breaking heart?
Cause I'm tired of aiding these scars
Too many times I thought I found the girl of my dreams
But they turn out to be a demon just playing the part
I'm starting to believe I don't deserve love
I try to be perfect
And give you my heart, you said it ain't worth much
It hurts cause, that's every relationship that I been in
Dealing with crazy women, when my back is turned they sinning
My trust was hard to earn and easy to lose
I wish we never met
All you do is bring me stress and make me think of death
People keep saying I gotta trust again and love again
Acting like that's great advice, I still took the leap of faith
Knowing my emotions were afraid of heights and landed at my grave site
Oh, now you wanna talk cause I'm in pain
I spent too many late nights crying because of you
Felt like dying because of you
So what the fuck you gotta say?
You don't deserve me, so why the fuck you bitching?
It really wasn't a tough decision
I just don't want you to hurt me
You might turn out just like your father
I bet that truth is hard to swallow
What other reason can it be?
He used to punch your mother when he was angry
So you probably do the same to me
Yea I lied and cheated, I'm not sorry
Gave me your heart, but I never asked for it
Enough with the sad stories, Pedro you weren't meant to be feliz

My suicidal thoughts growing daily
Had a talk with God, he said he don't wanna save me
Pills in my palm, I don't care how much I'm taking
Will I go to heaven?, Man, I don't know maybe
I guess no one can save me now
I guess no one can save me now
No one can save me now
No one, no one can save me now
My suicidal thoughts growing daily
Had a talk with God, he said he don't wanna save me
Pills in my palm, I don't care how much I'm taking
Will I go to heaven?, Man, I don't know maybe
I guess no one can save me now
I guess no one can save me now
No one can save me now
No one, no one can save me now