I Don't Know How

I don't know how I got stuck like this
I don't know how I end up like this
I don't know how I get left like this
I don't know how

I don't know how I got stuck like this
I don't know how I end up like this
I don't know how I get left like this
I don't know how

I feel like maybe there's just way too much damage done beyond repair
But damnit I'm prepared
No fronting that I was scared
All these whispers in my ear
Telling me to beware
But every time I looked their was no one there cause no one cared
Maybe I just care too much
And everybody else really just don't care enough
That's why I go outside at night and just be staring up
Looking for angels
Hoping that they would be sharing some luck
Cause all the pain that I hold deep inside
Makes me wanna lie down and just ball out my eyes
And maybe just die
This ain't the first time I tried suicide but daily I fight this one demon that just stays in my mind
I'm thinking just like as much as I been through I should been taken this knife straight to my throat
Cause that's how some of y'all treat me just like
Like I'm cut throat
I can't help that I was raised up in violence
It's the pain that I maybe be hiding
I try to disguise it but

I don't know how I got stuck like this
I don't know how I end up like this
I don't know how I get left like this
I don't know how

I don't know how I got stuck like this
I don't know how I end up like this
I don't know how I get left like this
I don't know how

On most days I just feel like I should give up
But I still get up out of bed my mind is still numb
I try to give loves but people take me for advantage
I'm not gonna take it
And I cannot motherfuckin stand it
But granted that I tried do good
I got out the hood
Did the best that I could to do everything that I should
And I still feel misunderstood
They think I wanna be evil
They think that I wanna mistreat them
They keep waking up my demon King Steff
And if I somehow seem aggressive it's only because
People just keep on messing me with me like an illegal weapon but he will cock back And have people just leave with questions and you won't receive an answer
I probably just need some closure
I'm tired people fucking me over
This anger's like a controller I was made for remotes though
But how many times have I been there for people they would cry and lay their head straight on my shoulders but still

I don't know how I got stuck like this
I don't know how I end up like this
I don't know how I get left like this
I don't know how

I don't know how I got stuck like this
I don't know how I end up like this
I don't know how I get left like this
I don't know how