Too Far Gone

So what if I die tonight
Will my name be up in lights
Will you see me in the sky
Could you say I was the guy
That made a difference in the world
Chasing dreams never girls
Only love never pearls
But you got my heart making swirls
Not materialistic, never unrealistic
Kept my dreams real cause I knew I was in it
When my body's dead, will my name still be alive
When I'm too far gone will you ever realize
What drove me to the end or what gave me that drive
My soul went ghost but depression still survived
My future looks bleak and dark and tough
Maybe cause I'm weak and scarred and rough
I left god a voicemail, he never called back
The devil hit my line and he turned my heart black
I was going straight but I'm missing a jack
10 Songs, king of wrongs got my queen and I snapped

If I die before I wake
Pray to god my soul to take
If I die tonight, if I die tomorrow

Will I be filled with fear or will I be filled with sorrow
If I die before I sleep
I pray that gods the one I meet
Pray that god has whiskey, and maybe a chaser
Looking back on my life was I the coach or was I the player

Yo I'm lost can someone find me a map
So I can get back on track to the days where I'd snap
Or maybe that's the problem, maybe that's the issue
Fists always clenched never reaching for a tissue
God I repent, I'm praying for my sins
I'm knocking on the door someone come and let me in
Don't wanna meet the Devil don't wanna meet Dante
Not trapped in the inferno, but that's what they all say
These feelings aren't expressed
Even when they might be
I'm hoping that god doesn't come down and smite me
For having my demons sitting right here beside me
We have our study groups on the basis of nightly
Anger on my right, regret on my left
They meet in the middle on the base of my chest
Replacing my heart, call that cardiac arrest
These are my thoughts, sincerely Genesis