Growth Spurt

God and I got reconnected
Sow his word and started reaping my blessings
My confidence I had to reposes it
Emotions re-express them
Change my ways to reach the heavens
Year 23 I treat it like jeepers creepers
Behind the mic time to meet the reaper
Ya'll just don't cut it and I got the clever
To the game I'm Lebron was to Cleveland
Words building bonds they start believing
In they selves see they dreams and get to reaching
Like the x button in 2k
Did I just play it to safe
Can't be scared to take a risk
Shoot even if you miss
Get a rebound and keep on tryin
Used to think my life is plain whole time I'm flyin
With a whole lot of turbulence
But at least I'm off the surface lift
Off thinking I got my wings sitting in the pit
Thinking I'm controlling my destination
TillI get the realization
It's on auto pilot
And God's flying
Even when I'm nose diving
Thinking its the end like Mayan
I gotta realize this is bigger than I am
I am merely a vessel
Used by God just to help you
Even when I'm lonely remember he never left you
He'll never let you
Down even when ya parents do
Your girl or your crew
Your brothers your sisters cousins nieces and nephews

Your job or your career
Clothes cars money is there
Materialism I would self indulge
Short tempter not Fahrenheit probably burst the bulb
Thinking why he fill me with self doubt
Giving my all to my people thinking how
To fill a void of emptiness
Thoughts became insidious
Self hate playing with self harm
Smile was a mask hiding all my scars
I never felt so alone, in a up hill fight
Praying and waiting for things just to go right
It was one night
Me and got in a fight
And I lost it
Yelling and fighting for hours exhausted
She fell asleep
I wrote a letter to my family
Saying please forgive
But I don't have anymore life live
I ran outside in the bitter cold
Dark road, just laid there
Got up tears flowed came near
A parking garage and went to the top
Standing on the ledge felt my heart drop

Calling God then I just stopped

See sometimes you gotta go through hell to reach heaven
That was so selfish what I was about to do
God has blessed me so much, so many gifts so many talents
So many great people in my life
Never let anger, depression or fear control you

It's in God's hands its his plan lehgo
Yikes

Sierra the way I G-Mc's
Giving L's like the dmv
DOA's and RIP's
Gifted like Christmas haters scrooge like Ebeneeze
Catching fire I'm Katniss Everdeen
I'm the greatest they ever seen
Growing money like a tree and mine is evergreen
Rolling through green like I'm in a golf cart
Know that will pull your hallmark
Get the cue and hit your pockets like a pool shark
I got a cold heart
Took ya son and raised him like Rafiki
Got ya Bm on the beach with no bikini
She saying get between me
Now we between sheets
I'm Ron Isley
Intellect be ivy
Leaving careers on IV

Pull the cord like a guitarist
My flow the hardest
They say you nuts WILL I AM known for going

Thats a humble brag
Had to tell you what I been through to let you know where I'm going
Yikes



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Writer(s): Kire Dennis
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