Slow Down

These past few days I've been really having trouble
Putting into words the things that go through my mind
And it's like I've been trying to run away from the things that hurt me most but
I think I got it back
Listen to me

Been having trouble with bottled emotions
The devils spell was working hard I've been finding that potion
Yeah
And it hurt my heart that my brother struggle
He won't confess but I can see he lack drive and devotion
The way they talk I feel the hate in they heart
But always knew where I would finish
I was great from the start
I told my brother if they test me
Ima break em apart
Like ima monster fuck around and take the tank from the shark
And I'm so grateful I can speak to my granny glad she ain't die yet
Remember asking god can he save her I can't say bye yet
It was a week since his death and I'm at the funeral
Before that moment constantly wonder why I ain't cry yet
Yeah
I miss my brother every day that's a fact
And the way that my mother love me only way I'm in tact
Family steadily took advantage of the things that I lacked
But I stayed solid even when it's like they prayed that I cracked
Yeah, but

I'm in my head I'm in my way
I'm searching for advice but all they ever seem to say is
Slow Down
Slow Down
Slow Down
Slow Down
They say you gotta slow down
I'm in my head I'm in my way
I'm searching for advice but all they ever seem to say is
Slow Down
Slow Down
Slow Down
Slow Down
They say you gotta slow down

And I'll be damned if my demons defeat me
I'm stomping on they heads that's how I make sure they beneath me
And my choice in women show that I'm growing
I'm less enamored by the looks and more how do they treat me
I used to shy from the heat of the moment
But now I'm ready for whatever let's see my opponent
But I can't go risk my life over nothing
It ain't no telling when my people gon' need my heroics
No sitting down to wait I'm coming for all I deserve
And conversations w my granny be calming my nerves
I can't blame you if you don't understand me
The neighborhood was satisfied w a ball and the curb
You niggas blind to how good you been living
Let's take a trip so I can shine how the hood has been living
And even though ain't a thing I regret
I cut relationships with people I should've forgiven
My only goal in life is take care of my family
Do this shit at all costs give a fuck who get mad at me
Buy my mom a bed with the fancy drapes and a canopy
You faded thinking I'd let you cross me nigga you had to be
Be hard to trust my thoughts when they got a past of deceiving me
That's why I show my love to the ones in life that believe in me
They'll never know my truth cause they so consumed by the narrative
I shouldn't pay attention to how these people perceiving me

I'm in my head I'm in my way
I'm searching for advice but all they ever seem to say is
Slow Down
Slow Down
Slow Down
Slow Down
They say you gotta slow down
I'm in my head I'm in my way
I'm searching for advice but all they ever seem to say is
Slow Down
Slow Down
Slow Down
Slow Down
They say you gotta slow down