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I'm not a person
Just a blood computer
Reflecting my taste
With learned behavior
I'm just a vessel in a sea of actors
Escape the noose replace it with a dollar
Hoping that'll make me less of an imposter
But I'm just another chemical motor
Built from the ones who caused my mechanical failure

If they say that I am
Selling my depression but nobody wants to buy it
Why's it still there?
It's a nightmare
And if I said I wasn't lying
To save myself from dying
They'd still be there
Only to compare

I've made my peace with my broken pieces
And I'll pay in blood
If that's what you need
I'll give you my skin
So you won't bleed

Cause there is beauty in failed attraction
Hollow out my bones if it gets a reaction
What's the point of forcing all these fruitless transactions
If I can't hide the bruises swallowing up my actions

The pain is a stem that will only grow
It may never show until the heartbeat plateaus

If I am selling my depression
But nobody wants to buy it
Why's it still there?
It's a nightmare
And if I said I wasn't lying
To save myself from dying
They'd still be there
Only to compare
Because everyone's the same
Everyone's the same
Only listening when called by name
Because everyone's the same
Everyone's the same
Hearing only when there's something to gain

Hey, can I sell you a feeling?
Hey, can a thought be bought?
Hey, I can give you the goods
Hey, dying for a livelihood

I am nothing in the eyes of my creator
Selling my parts to the minds and thoughts of my enablers
Selling my soul to this broken down machine
I am
Nothing
If
They
Say
That I'm

Selling my depression
But nobody wants to buy it
Why's it still there?
It's a nightmare
And if I said I wasn't lying
To save myself from dying
They'd still be there
Only to compare
Because everyone's the same
Everyone's the same
Only listening when called by name
Because everyone's the same
Everyone's the same
Hearing only when there's something to gain

Hey
Hey
I am nothing
Hey
Hey
I hope you feel something