If I Fail You

What is this thing in my hand?
Does it breathe or understand
The things I went through
The things Tim went through for it?
I submit

The hell I've been thinkin'?
My heart is so empty
Everyone's dying
And that includes me too
I was gone long before you

If I fail you one more time
The punishment won't match the crime
'Cause there's no pain that could ever explain
How I let you down

And if I fail you one more time
The mountain I would have to climb
Is so high up that I would have to die
Oh, I
I failed you once, and I will fail again

Does he see a father
Who doesn't even bother
To get to know him
To really know his soul
And his role
Maybe he's happy
I wouldn't have any idea
Maybe the route is simply in ending the drought
Why not find out?

If I fail you one more time
Or if I fail to recognize
What you need
Or when you need me to be around

And if I fail to hear your voice
Or if I make the easy choice
The world would tear asunder, drowning all
Oh, I
I failed you once, and I would fail again

When I turned nine
I went to the 99 cent store
I wanted a pop gun
That looked like they used in the Corps
Knowing my dad, I knew the chance was slim
He got me a cheaper dagger
But deep down, it didn't matter
I was with him
Where's Tim?

She used to like bars
She liked to loosen me up
Just to get at my heart
She'd poke at each of my wounds
To see what I'd say
And now, she's doing the same
And then, flash-
And then, flash-

If I fail you one more time
The punishment won't match the crime
'Cause there's no pain that could ever explain
How I let you down
And if I fail you one more time
The mountain I would have to climb
Is so high up, that I would have to die
Oh, I
I failed you once, but I won't fail
Again