Guilt and Shame

The stakes were high when I paid the piper
Wore the face of a lie and a great provider
Lakes of fire in a sober mind, focused rhymes
Enough hope to float in time
Yeah, jokes aside I approach my peak
With open eyes that see through the smoke of a broken scene
This is more than rap, its sworn fact
Testimony for the scorch of wax
So, walk that line with a tortured mind
You can only drink the water if the horse is blind
Of course its pride! had to shatter a dream
A little: battle fatigues not as bad as it seems
Can't hold control over passage of time
You can't starve the soul of its passionate light
Cracked the vice and decided to change, ignited a flame
The rise that was guided by pain

From the guilt and the shame I remember your name
And there's filth that remains on the hilt of my blade
What i built from the rage in the tilt of the flame
Yet there's filth that remains on the hilt of my blade
From the guilt and the shame i remember your name
And there's filth that remains on the hilt of my blade
What i built from the rage in the tilt of the flame
Yet there's filth that remains on the hilt of my blade

From spiritual holes to spiritually whole
My soul is like a symphony of lyrics evolved
They mould inside a symmetry, hold the right validity
Cold to types of bigotry particularly sold
Just know i spit venom, my flow is lit cannons
If it's mismanaged? it's known to rip damage
From quick friends in zones now my sets are known
And i watch my time kept like a metronome
On the rocks i was a mess through the steps i've grown
Was looking for a message and i checked my phone
Was left alone.with a voice inside
That voice led me to a point - either choice of pride
The void was wide astride the gaping hole
I was: mad for years, fears taking hold
Break the mould, escape to the place i've grown,
Cause' i never thought beer would ever take control

From the guilt and the shame i remember your name
And there's filth that remains on the hilt of my blade
What i built from the rage in the tilt of the flame
Yet there's filth that remains on the hilt of my blade
From the guilt and the shame i remember your name
And there's filth that remains on the hilt of my blade
What i built from the rage in the tilt of the flame
Yet there's filth that remains on the hilt of my blade

I wasn't there when you lost your mind
How did you prepare for the rocks to slide?
Did you: watch the face of clockless time
Soft and kind, a boss as you crossed the line
An architect of sabotage, hard regrets and battle scars
Marked for death he cast a net and arson met the travel barge
Row, row with your body of lies
To some it adds up, lets put numbers aside
It's logical right? probably probable right?
If the past presents a future then the toxins decide!
Watch your, options divide through fried optical wires
And while the topics denial: there's no problem at all
I've been - watching you fall and it's breaking my heart
Started, dodging my calls now you're chasing the shard
Breaking apart, placing your Face in masks,
Come back to where it's safe and away from the harm!

From the guilt and the shame i remember your name
And there's filth that remains on the hilt of my blade
What i built from the rage in the tilt of the flame
Yet there's filth that remains on the hilt of my blade
From the guilt and the shame i remember your name
And there's filth that remains on the hilt of my blade
What i built from the rage in the tilt of the flame
Yet there's filth that remains on the hilt of my blade