Alone

Find my meaning in the hands of a Father
Fighting my depression if I win it's a slaughter
Wanna go somewhere wanna be someone
My life feel pretty empty and I lost my love
Like I left my throne, I left my peace
Distractions were too many so I emptied these
Found the well goes deeper but the waters cease
Scraping barrels for my meaning so I'm moving east
Slapping on the bandage when I'm all alone
People make it better but it only grows
Making lists of all the things that I can't atone
If forgiveness is a feeling then I'm in the apathetic zone
I'm living like a pauper
I'm filling up my coffers
I'm drinking dirty water
I'm starving for an author
You can feel alone when you're not alone
And you can fake a smile when you're not alone

You can feel alone when you're not alone
And you can fake a smile when you're not alone
You can feel alone when you're not alone
And you can fake a smile when you're not alone

I had a friend named Nischaal, he took his life now he's gone
I think of him sometimes and wonder maybe if I'd listened
Maybe he'd be here with me and we could share a vision
Maybe he'd be here and then I wouldn't have to miss him
Friends are a funny thing one minute they're right next to you
Next minute they're gone and you do not know what to do
Last time we talked you were dating that girl
Funny how the time flies I haven't heard from
Missing all the people that have faded away
Maybe we'll cross paths and I'll see them some day
From the Josh's and the Bill's and the Jeremy's and Jess's
I wanted them to know that I didn't forget 'em
I guess I've never really been all alone
I've got a lot of friends and they hold me close
But then you can feel alone when you're not alone
And you can fake a smile when you're not alone

You can feel alone when you're not alone
And you can fake a smile when you're not alone
You can feel alone when you're not alone
And you can fake a smile when you're not alone