Dead and Cold

I wish I was dead and cold
I wish I was dead

I forgot what you looked like
treated me so damn child like
you treating this like a movie but this shits real life
I wish I'd tell you every single thing I dislike

about you
and everything that you do
you made me wish that I had never ever went up to you
you made me wish that I had sat down and just thought it all through
you made me wish I had another party to attend to

but
I don't know what to do for the rest of my life
I mean
everything I had lined up to you as my wife
everything I do just makes me wanna grab a knife
and cut down to the bone that's what I do when it is night

death
what I think is what is gonna happen
breath
on my neck kiss you take off the fashion
throw the flag this girl just broke my heart
now I'm
losing all my progress and I'm going back to start

pain all the time
just want it to go away

sleep anytime
anything to be okay

you were a dime
it was all a big cliche

and now I'm
goin' down a stair way

get it
to hell
cuz that's where I belong

if that wasn't the case
then why would I be writing songs

and I'm sorry girl
sorry that I can't be very strong

seems like that every single little thing I did
I did it wrong

and well
sorry that's the case
if I really wanted to, I just couldn't see your face
if I really wanted to, I could get out of this place
and I don't mean travel I mean go straight to my death place

going in blindly
man, I was looking mindless
coming out
both of my eyes are looking lifeless
and if you wonder why I'm keeping peace and silence
its cuz I am pretending that I'm on my own island