Faded Again

Look
I'm getting faded again
I'm so tired of faking smiles an just trying to pretend
Like I'm happy
When inside I'm dead
Just wanna find a way to help to get me out of my head
So I smoke
Until my lungs can't take no more
I'm all alone
Thinkin how do I get through this on my own
I need a place I don't feel crazy calling home
There's only one thing that I know

Is that I'm scared scared that one day I'll wake up and you just won't be here
Scared that one day I won't know the man that's in the mirror
I know that I've got a long way to go
But I won't ever have you feeling alone
And I'd be lying if I said that I'd be rapping without you
I'd be lying if I said it I be happy without you
Because honestly I don't know where I'd be in my life without you I came alive because of you and now without you I'd be incomplete
Every time I go to sleep I need you next to me
Cause next to me is the only place that you should ever be
I know I've fucked up made you wanna pack your things and leave
Cause I ain't been the same since I had to hang up my cleats I know it's selfish
Now I'm tryna be a better man for my son and so I feel I'm nothing like my dad
Just wanna make sure that he doesn't look at me the same
Way
I do my father and now everyday

I'm getting faded again
I'm so tired of faking smiles an just trying to pretend
Like I'm happy
When inside I'm dead
Just wanna find a way to help to get me out of my head
So I smoke
Until my lungs can't take no more
I'm all alone
Thinkin how do I get through this on my own
I need a place I don't feel crazy calling home
There's only one thing that I know

Will I ever make it guess I don't know
Only time will tell
I feel I'm trapped inside my mind
But feel like I'm in hell
I been working all the time and I'm just trying to find
A way that I can finally get some fucking peace of mind
Every time I call you up I hope you still around cause after this
I know that you'll know I've been feeling down
I been tryna vent all the shit that's on my mind
I need to change my ways I know because now every time
That I get down I know it's gonna end badly
Hoping that you call me back because I need you badly
When you not around I just feel like I fucking can't breathe
Now please know that I would do anything for you
Tatted on my neck you know I got real love for you
Once I get a check baby all I'm gon' do is spoil you
Now I know you hate it when I'm faded
Try to let you in my mind but babe that shits too complicated now

I'm getting faded again
I'm so tired of faking smiles an just trying to pretend
Like I'm happy
When inside I'm dead
Just wanna find a way to help to get me out of my head
So I smoke
Until my lungs can't take no more
I'm all alone
Thinkin how do I get through this on my own
I need a place I don't feel crazy calling home
There's only one thing that I know is that I'm scared
Is that I'm scared
So I'm getting faded again
I'm getting faded again
Yeah