Harsh Augmented Reality

Fascinated with the delusions I fabricate
I can't create, obliterate so stuck beneath the
Pressures that I instigate
I should be grateful
I am quite amazed
That I'm awake to give away my time to contemplate and
I wish I could tell you things are gonna be okay
But we know its not the same
I want to tell you that I know that you can change
But you still drive your friends away
You've got to live with the decisions that you've made
Sometimes burned bridges just can't be remade
But be thankful that it wasn't too late
Your wake up call has come today
I shan't be wasteful
My soul I've got to save
I piece together an image of
The relationships I've laid to waste
Tired and tasteful
I can't afford to wait
Life's a procession that begins
around the corner from the grave
Absurdity is all it is and then we're gone too fast
Felicity I strive for but it always waits beyond my grasp
In a foggy haze a holy being intensifies
And I pray to her to take me
And I beg for her to save me from myself
And the selfishness with which I dug my grave
Loneliness can't be my only fate
Avoiding ourselves does not keep us safe
Loneliness can't be my only fate
I wish I could tell you things are gonna be okay
But we know its not the same
I want to tell you that I know that you can change
But you still drive your friends away
You got to live with the decision that you made
Sometimes burnt bridges can't be remade
But be thankful that it wasn't too late
Your wake up call has come today
I just wish that you would only stay
Its only you that now you have to face