Quarantine

I've been searching for a smile made me walk a thousand miles
Couple splinters wooden tile
I've been stressed out for a while
I can't seem to get a break
So I force myself to break
Wishing for something to change
I don't have to switch my Lanes
Why can't things just be the same
Take me back to 9th grade
Every day was getting laid
Every card I had to trade
Think it was a parade
But the rain had to invade
Now I'm sitting feeling strayed
And my smile seems to fade

Now I wonder how to relieve all this pressure
Try to make everybody happy was my mission
My mistake while everybody feeling saved
I've been chilling down inside my grave

Don't ask me any questions cause I'll lie and say I'm fine
I don't want your attention cause I'm just another guy
I can't promise that I make it out alive
So I write all I have left inside

Think about my past just to fuck up my future
I can count the amount of times I've been lied to on my fingers
I'm just tired never sleep
Like I never had a dream
But this music thing isn't as easy as it seems
But I do it just to bring myself back to my springs
But now hanging by a string isn't bad the more I think
Standing tall let me fall because I refuse to sink
There's no pool of emotions
Compared that to the ocean

So now I'm stuck and I don't know what to do
I can call and talk to someone for a different point of view
But lemme tell you that it's just not my avenue
I'm always on my own that's how I make it through

Fake it till you make it is all I've ever known
So I'm sorry if you're getting tired of this shitty flow
When I write every time my heart goes where it goes
So sad when I go cause no one will ever know