Breakdown

And in the ten thousand times I tried to tell you
Did you ever stop and think
What it means to me To you
Is it Written in the ink

Have you forgotten what you told me
When you said you would never leave
My vision is spinning blinking
And my only thought is
"Breathe"

I'm sorry for what I am
And for what I never said
Never lied and never thought and never bled

Is this what you wanted
Then why did you ask
And all so that you could say to me I'm not up to the task

In all the time I've wasted, I never believed in
Something to fill me with dread
A dream, a vision, terror shooting me awake
The feeling always lingers screaming in my head

I thought I knew what was, and what would have been
And now I've driven you away
The years lost in days, weeks, seconds
And now all i can do is contemplate is the day

Will you ever return in a way that matters
Words I thought that I'd never hear you call
And somehow it's worse to hear
Not the same
Than not at all

I'm sorry for what I am
And for what I never said
Never lied and never thought and never bled

Is this what you wanted
Then why did you ask
And all just to tell me I'm not up to the task

In all the time I've wasted I never believed in
Something to fill me with dread
A dream, a vision
Your arms around my neck the feeling always lingers screaming in my head

And I know I'm thinking too quick
And I know I'm acting too harsh
But how can I ignore a feeling
So strong it made me
Sick

I'm sorry for what I am
And for what I never said
Never lied and never thought and never bled

Is this what you wanted
Then why did you ask
And all just to tell me I'm not up to the task

In all the time I've wasted I never believed in
Something to fill me with dread
A dream, a vision
Terror shooting me awake the feeling always lingers screaming in my head