Final Gasp

Losing interest, I need a sedative
All this life shit really getting repetitive
I would rather be a loner, not a poser
I'm sober in her eyes, but for real I am a stoner
Hoodie on my head, so you won't see that I'm crying
Outside I'm flying, inside slowly dying
And I hate to see, that you found someone better
I know it wasn't hard, but can I at least get a letter
I've been falling slowly, just like a feather
Storms in my head, damn, always bad weather
But can't you fucking see, that my head is a mess
You say that you love, why the fuck make me depressed
I'm obsessed, in distress, way too much stress
I wanna give the world to you, but you give me less
In the end, i'm the lone wolf, growl at the moon
Drunk at 4 am, alone in my room

Start to question my existence
Can I really make a difference
And I'm tired of this fake life, fake friends
When does it all end?

Don't give me hope, if you'll rip it apart
No bandage can fix, my broken heart
I know ya'll had a plan, so why you took part
I know you don't care, but I admit that you're smart
I don't think that I will see tomorrow
Because I am drowning in my sorrow
They tell me, I'm the best
Unlike the rest
But it's hard to breathe
With a weight on my chest

So let me take a final look
You can read me like a book
I don't realize what it took
Hold on to me, like a hook
I don't hate you and I never will
I don't blame you and I never will
I'm just tryna make a mill
Buy a house up in the hill

Gaze at the stars, look how they fall
Why in the fuck should I stand tall
I know that one moment, I'll lose it all
To make someone happy, that's my main goal
If I tell you I love you, you'll reply with a LOL
You made a movie, and I was the role
I was a victim, traumatized of my past
No point in loving, this is my final gasp