Tell Me

They say a blessing only comes from the sky
But I know that a miracle
Always comes from all high

Tell me what is?
Tell me what you do?
Tell me what the average kid is always going thru
Tell me bout the pain and regret that he feels
He's looking in the sky wishing he could make a deal
"I'll give you my life God, if you bring her back
My mom is dying, her heart's in attack"
He pacing but patient then looks at his phone
Feigning to get that text she coming home
Tell me bout moments when people taste fear
His mamma's in debt and his daddy's on pills
Spending the money that he sent to heal
It's crazy how money can make you repeal

It's crazy how money can cause you to steal
It's crazy how money can change how you feel

"Lord
My son is hurt
I'd rather die here
Then to see em hurt
I'd rather give up just to be in the dirt
Lord cant you hear me?
They say that you work
Just give me a miracle, something that perks
My son is so young, watched his tears
And it hurt

Lord
My son is so young, wiped his tears
Then it hurt"

Momma won't listen
I tell her I'm fine
Meanwhile I hide just to cry what's inside
The bullies in school still won't leave me alone
But they tell me I'm worthless, I need to go home
Dad's on the couch, he's passed out from them pills
Walk to my room, second guess, imma steal
Collecting that money that caused him to steal
I know it's not much but I think it's enough
Momma be'd proud just to see that I'm tough
And I'm hiding this money, so she can get stuff

I'm hiding this money so she can get up
Her treatments expensive, I don't have enough
I bought her card just to tell her I love
Her
I love you mom
Please
Please don't go
Mom
Do you hear me?
Stay with me
Mom
Mom
Mom

I feel like a failure, I'm failing my family
Look son
I can't give it up, the pills give me rush
The pills kill the pain
The pills keep in touch
The pills let me know I'm not useless as crutch
But my son
He's growing up
I hate how he wants me to show him love
I can't give him that, I don't owe enough
My father went missing, that lack of trust
God why did my wife have to bite the dust?
She's dead and she's gone and I'm crying out loud
"Lord give me strength, I just need you right now
I can't lose my grip, and I can't lose my child
He hates me I know it
I can't lose my grip and I can't lose my child
I failed him I know it"

"How can you run then abandon us?
I needed you father, I needed love
My mom passed away, she can't rise from her sleep
How can you sit there, your firstborn's in need
I told you I wanted affection and peace
But why do you run to these drugs for relief?
Why do you do this?
Why do you drown your emotions with sleep?"
Dad it's hurting me
Just wake up!

Although mom is gone
All I want to do is see her again
Can you do that?
Mom always said she was on her way to heaven
To you
So all I ask is that you save me a spot