My Graduation

I went through a lot
Two heartbreaks and a half
After them I wrote dot
Kept inside all the words I planned to say that made me cough
The way last year started I thought it would be the hardest
Victim of the same mistake done over
And over again that led to the same pain
But now I feel grateful for what have been
Cause without it I wouldn't have been able
To recognize what being truly loved means.
Love doesn't leave you frail, it does not consume your nails
It's not a tragic fairytale
If you ask me if I miss her I'll tell you I don't.
Cause it only resembled the feeling of love.
I was wrong when I said that what I
Felt was always falling in love by myself.
For her I was the red on the traffic light,
I was afraid of not being good enough for this fight.
Frustrated, because I didn't know if I was smart enough and if in
The end I would be graduated, but now that concern is just a fluff.
My fear of failure kept me away from trying.
My fear of failure dragged close to the thought of dying.
I was enchained to some rituals,
Scared that without them my efforts would be ineffectual.
I met misery and I fought her artillery with sad songs filled with my
Most harmful wrongs, she felt small,
For the first time I was out of her control.
The last time I saw her flame I blew out the candle
And although she survived it's now something I can handle.
But now here I am on this stage all dressed in black,
Let go of all the rage, now there's no looking back.
This is my graduation, my graduation in life, in love,
Graduation in knowing the lies I should dispose of,
Graduation in healing, in freedom,
Graduation in dealing with poisonous people, graduation in coping,
In pleasure, in hoping but most importantly
Graduation in me, in who I was, who I am and who I wanna be.