It Draws Circles on the Back of My Hands

I wake up at 2.30 in the night without you by my side
Pour down another glass to fall back asleep
But I'm scared of the nightmares that I have nearly every night
For the last 26 days
Although the pain is burning a whole into my stomach
I admit that I somehow crave for that bitter sweet taste
It remembers every single kiss of yours
But it draws circles on the back of my hands

So, I hide them inside my pockets hoping you won't notice
But the blood under my fingernails stains blue into dark red
I grit my teeth cause I can't simply escape hell
So I'm pulling myself through the dirt day by day and night by night

Drowning in my own mind
Convulsing with every breath
I tear myself into pieces to keep the light alive

So, I hide them inside my pockets hoping you won't notice
But the blood under my fingernails stains blue into dark red
I grit my teeth cause I can't simply escape hell
So I'm pulling myself through the dirt day by day and night by night

Drowning in my own mind
Convulsing with every breath
I tear myself into pieces to keep the light alive

As you left I pulled out tooth by tooth
Cause my words couldn't make you stay
I don't deserve the soft skin of your lips
But neither I do deserve the hell inside my head
As your lips are too afraid to speak your eyes are crying the truth
And I can feel my bones cracking
Under the weight of the world crashing down on me

The world turns its back at me and you watch me fall apart
The world turns its back at me and you watch me fall apart
The world turns its back at me and you watch me fall apart
The world turns its back at me and you watch me fall apart