Relief

These little things that stay so half as pleasant
As the days that passed that lasted only half a second
Just the simple kind of memories that act as blessings
Dash throughout the wind as we forget just how to send a message
No more pride throughout my youth
No more friends from all my younger days
I just forget how I could be still in my youngest age
These moonlit thoughts turn into dreams that help me run away
And I'm still tryna grow up some more
I still remember sharing headphones tryna listen to the Chance tape
Writing all the love letters I never thought would turn me
To who I am today
And now I'm just a kid with a vision and some magic in my system after
Trafficking my wisdom through my lyricism, still now
Letting every second make up every single mess up
Through my tears I try to make it through my years now
I'm growing up but I don't feel that much older
It seems like time just comes with even more a weight to shoulder
High school stinks and it smells with such a shameless odor
You would hate it too if you were stained with such a hateful quota
Man I hate disorder, never waiting for my place
I know my weight is like a paper plate
Barbecue of life I'm floating round these opaque tables
Tryna see if the world is just an endless fable

Oh, I chase that feeling that I lost, I wonder what it costs
Wanna be a star, I'll do anything at all
To make it right, so still I try
Wanna live my life
And try make it shine
Never felt so bright, is loving such a crime?
I wanna make it mine and put up quite a fight
Well if it's fine and I'm alive, then I'll still be alright