howl of the wind

I was hiding out in my father's house
Reeling at the edge of the hallowed ground
My shoe soles' taste anticipated by teeth
Miles below
And I was at the edge of the world I knew
When your eyes locked with mine
From across the room and I thought
Of Peter jumping from a boat
Just to be near to you
And I was hoping I'd learn to feel the same
The sound of my denials still ringing
And I know that by now I've chalked up
A whole lot more than three

You used to wave in the fog of early mornings
You used to smile in the green of the trees
You used to speak with the wind howling around me
As I learn to live with me
And I don't think that you're all gone
But I've been lonely in the space of my own company
Sometimes I feel the weight of your gaze
But I can't hear you speak

Have you been repeating a promise to save me
Staring into my failures unblinking?
Or was that the howl of the wind and
A glare in my eyes?