Insomnia

I'm racing time, facing myself
Avoiding the mirror, I see the person I left
Trying to heal
Shes still dying inside
Had to let go just so I could survive
Escapism is an art
I travel days when I scribe
Off to nirvana to be closer to God
Cure all the pain, remove the disguise
Insomnia lurking on my walls in the night
Touching on my mind but I can't fight
Therapist said be brave turn off the lights
You'll soon realize it will be alright
But underneath the bed is all I fear
And all the things I dread seem to appear
Past becomes the present over again
Try to help her but I run instead
Feet don't get weary, no
Forgive me for not being strong
Forgive me for giving up
Letting go and not holding on
But it hurt too bad to go through that
To lose yourself, can't get her back
To replay scenes and feel the same pain
To run away, end up in the same place
I didn't even fight, I left that up to you
Can't sleep at night
That's what these scars will do
Drink til your fine
That's what these bars will prove
Get in your car and drive
Until the dark turns blue
Face another day like nothing's bothering you
Though you feel the numb
It's only temporary
Eventually it won't be as heavy

Monsters are real, I tried to tell them
Seep into your skin, I still feel the venom
I let you win, it's like there was no choice
I'll never forget, how can I forgive

Hands on the clock are pointing up at me
Stalling in the moments that I am unhappy
Then racing through space when I am fine
Only to stop again just to rewind
Tug on the covers, open your eyes
Slumber is over, I'm paralyzed
I often wonder If I'm still alive
Not sure I recognize the person inside
Insomnia touching on me when I am sleep
Insomniac, I often blamed these dreams
Even then still it only seems
Nightmares only come when in fear of something
Ever tried to scream, no one hears a peep
Ever try to fight, but you're just too weak
Ever tried to make it all go away
Only to hurt yourself more than you think?

I'm stuck racing time
Telling myself I'll be fine
Escape into the depths of my mind
Ease now, breathe now, you'll be alright