Jameelah

I mean it's sometimes friends become
Family
Sometimes family become enemies

See she was a friend of the family
Like a sister or a daughter is what
You would call her
And her father died for Allah
And she took her shahadah
By product lifting her god up
Her sister was Beanie
And my brother was her lover
When ever she seen me
I was up under my mother
Taneisha my cousin
But they were close enough
To joke with us
And you knew you was good if you
Broke it up and smoked a dutch
I'm talking 5 or 6 when describing
This in Stuyvesant
By the time I was 10
I'm in Carolina tryna blend
She came to see me
By the heater watching TV and
Her watching my niece and me
Peacefully was a recent thing
But we wasn't concerned with who
She was serving the beast or king
Showered her baby
We were the people
That she really loved
I would embrace her
When I seen her we would really hug
She was a diamond
Assigned for a different time
When my mother's mother passed
Death decided to align

Fast forward to 1996 March 20th
It's my sister Michelle's birthday
He's up stairs having an argument
With Jameelah
And
Tempers get the best of them
And the next thing you know

Shot licked off
And my brothers gotten picked off
Yes it was Meelah
She don't know what happen
It just flicked off
Twon on the floor
Bleeding looking weird
And she scared
My brother just had a son
And she thinking bout the kids
Her daughter was 2 then
She was tryna be a student
And thinking bout moving
Now it's over cause she's old enough
To do federal time
In a maximum facility
To point blank range
Out of the chamber
Was killing thee entire family
This wasn't premeditated it was
Self defense
Can't call it but it was manslaughter
Prayer and mourning
Is what you seen on the scene
Out of body experience she thought It was a dream
Suicidal thoughts
In the moment couldn't own it
Was a petty argument
That murdered her opponent
She fell to the darkness
Her whole life would change
She lit a stogg on the stop
And told the truth when they came

And one life was lost
And that life wasn't coming back
What do we do now

She went to the precinct
And from the precinct to the cell
And she was convicted
I mean convicted as hell
The family was guilty
And still blaming themselves
Like how could this happen
And what about Michelle
This some kind of birthday
She lost her little brother
The gun in the first place
It wasn't hers it was a cousin's
The family was grieving
And they stayed angry for years
And death kept on creeping up and Bring out the tears
They were disconnected
If you came around you could feel it
The family's now infected by
A whole different spirit
And I was the little brother that was Still under his mother
Tryna survive the trauma that was Trapped up in his momma
The rain came
Soon as the pain came
And it wouldn't stop
Death got aquatinted
And made change we couldn't block
Grace afforded her less than 10
In the banger
After 20 years
I called Jameelah and forgave her

I wasn't gone
And plus I wasn't gone go to school
That day
But Michelle was like
Cause Michelle
She wasn't
She wouldn't give me car fare
To go to school so
I um
Twon gave me car fare
To go to school
Or whatever and um
You know when I was there
In school
That night before Trina
Brought us a old picture of Twon
And you know
That night that it happened
I had a dream
That um police was running through
The running up the stairs
Running through the house
Up the stairs
And Antoine was on the couch
With a white sheet over his head
And um you know
I had that dream the night before
It happened
And that's exactly what happened the Next day