Mental Compensation

You lead me on, off the edge
Wont let me go, it never ends
Something's way off, yeah something's wrong
Didn't realise that I was your pawn

You picked your target carefully and filled me up with fascination
Gave me glimpses of the future ever since we left the station
Tied me up with thoughts of times yet to come,
Instead i'm left here dealing with this empty helpless numb

You'd call me up, you'd lead me on
Never would I expect the blade that i would fall upon

But i was naive and i didn't see the signs
Never saw you using me and crossing all the lines
But i was naive and I really wasn't fine
On the edge of the abyss without a lifeline

You'd curse me down, You'd leave me dead
Never would I expect the gun that pierces me with lead

She filled her life with pain and problems, left it all to me
Drowning in the stress around it, I could hardly see
Tired of unmatched affection, all the fags and money missing
All simply for a taste of fake love and some lousy kissing

She led him off into the abyss
Took nothing more than just a kiss
And as he sunk and delved in deep
Nothing left but remnants of sleep

Started as admiration, abnormal fascination
There was no limitation, the perfect combination
An easy observation, the talk the conversation
The bliss and relaxation, soon turned to accusation
I put consideration, into my emancipation
My missing inspiration, my broken motivation
I'm lost in isolation, I don't know what i'm saying
All's left is my craving, for mental compensation
Mental compensation